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2010-04-21T00:47:00.001-07:00

21st April 2010.

A long time did not update blog already.In school.Life is kind of bad for me i also got no idea.just that i got a weird feelign about something that i dotn really like.I have signes of depression i suspect i am suffering from that.My life is really so meanless,so lonely no friends all that shit.I am in school now.i will stop here.I really got no mood.

2010-03-01T00:01:00.000-08:00

1st March 2010.Part 2.

nth yet.

2010-02-28T08:03:00.000-08:00

1st March 2010.

A long time since i have tell my things to the net.and if people are reading my this blog they wont be looking at it anymore because when is the last time i write out something long it is like 1 years plus i think if i am not wrong.Recently i am really feeling very F*** up.A lot of shit happen to me lately and recently.now is 12.06 just went to have a basketball match i am kind of tired and fan angry sad and everything lar.just dont have the mood to do things my Basic Driving Test is coming and i really very tired and bored to all these things already.Just feel like rot to death.Now i am talking to my girlfriend and she is like complaining i am different like talk differently.

The F***ing thing i am still angry now is what she done me recently and she dont feel anything and she really feel anything she never show than she will say she got show she got show.than people will be thinking i am bad lar all these F***ing reason to my face.Just went to Facebook to see people profile.They are couple i am not going to mention who is it.they are like so loving all that lar.i say more i more tulan hope you get what i mean.And people are so loving and what about me.Love the Lan J*** arh.All i get is lies bullied lonely by leaving me alone all that lor.that is love to me hahahax.you guys must be laughing at me now.hahahax ya it is really dame F***ing funny.

And the best part is she told me that she is feeling scard now scard of me in what way i dont know.I am confuse leh? last time she told me that she really love me a lot the thing i am confused is why she lied to me so badly till now i cant forget.It is stuck in my F***ing head.
And recently also the things happen than she still cant say and tell people that she really love me a lot a lot.

Because of someone she lied to me again just recently.And now on the phone she is still like keep repeating the dame same thing over and over again.I think from just now till now she say "why i suddenly so different" like 12 times already.lolx.later she see this sure tulan.than give me pattern again than she will say i wont do pattern again.

Than now she like forget what she write to someone those F***ing she loving the words did she say to me till like that.Now i am writing this i am DAME FUCKING ANGRY FUCK LIFE.She dont have the dame F***ing heart to tell me that she deleted it already and now i am angry than she dont know and she still act like nothing happen.FUCK.FUCK.FUCK.FUCK.FUCK.FUCK.FUCK.FUCK.FUCK.FUCK.FUCK.
FUCK.FUCK.FUCK.FUCK.FUCK.FUCK.
FUCK.FUCK.FUCK.FUCK.FUCK.FUCK.FUCK.FUCK.FUCK.
FUCK.FUCK.FUCK.FUCK.FUCK.FUCK.FUCK.FUCK.FUCK.FUCK.FUCK.FUCK.FUCK.
FUCK.FUCK.FUCK.FUCK.FUCK.

I am feeling very down and angry all that dont feel like write some more already.

2010-02-22T09:56:00.000-08:00

2010

I am so sorry guys for MIA.I lost hope in a lot of things.

2010-01-21T17:30:00.000-08:00

22nd January 2010.

Omg i am so sorry for so long MIA.So so sorry.Alot of things happen lately.i really cant explain how i feel i am feeling sad lonely angry jealous mad world so unfair depress feel like committing suicide.i nw also dont know which is which.

Now i am all alone at home my girlfriend is working these few days i am under deep shit.yes really shit.i am so stress out i think i am going mad.
I really got no mood to write i will stop here for nw.

2009-08-14T09:34:00.001-07:00

15 August 2009.

Sorry long time no update because nothing much to update.
Honey and i just back to the way we wanted ya a long way to the end.i also dont know what i mean.any way honey bought for me magic called "Full Nelson".Is a 9 packet false cut display.i don't have the video i am so sorry.

If i am not wrong it was thursday i and honey went to takashimaya shopping walk with honey lor.she wear spagetti shirt abit low those guys keep looking at her sia.told her not to wear that low next time.ok honey??.bought a yu gi oh book weekly jump.than bring honey eat japanese noodle.

Playing Dragonica just lvl 29.fat right hahax.joking.and waiting for honey call.just went to honey blog to tagg her nia.not from ellusionist de tagged hor.hahax.
than walk walk eat here eat there arh har went to eat kfc also the new hot wings really dame spicy sia.on that day honey and me happy day.wish everyday can like that we can spent so much time together.

today just finish my narfa test pass my 2.4 run.next week going to shuttle run than no need worry about army already..

i have a video to share with you.

2009-07-26T06:27:00.001-07:00

26th July 2009..

Is another hard day for me.it is like a game to me now..i am very sick and not in the mood to handle this.

2009-07-24T22:04:00.000-07:00

25th July 2009..Sorry a long long time did not update..now i am sick yesterday took temperature was 37.8.so high today i heaven t take yet but got feel a bit better from yesterday..so boring i wake up at around 8 or 8 plus..than about 10.17 called me..and i was like wow you so early wake up..than she put down the phone say will message me..than after message a few than she did not reply already..i don t know weather is she suddenly fall asleep or she faint again..OMG other time i am ok she so good on saturday and when i am not well this what i get.how can i continue this kind of life..i really thought of breaking up with her.i know is sound stupid i just need to be care and always with me.and now i am not well it should be every minute or second with me but i did not have it..my whole body is aching and don t know why just now i was in the toilet doing business than i hold the tissue in my hand than i feel like my vain or something hurt a sharp pain..than after that also got one more time when i was in the toilet now i am ok le.want to sent soon i am so hungry going find something to eat and about 3 plus my mum than come back..i can t tarhan till she come back..i deleting thing from my computer that i don t need and put them in my external hardisc..i going watch the day the earth stood still..don t know what to do sia..so sian..it is so irritating my nose just keep leaking and leaking.i am eating some small thing now..yummy..yummy..

went to rest at about 3.20.than can t sleep so just lye down and rest..than suddenly i was may be tired or what so call fall asleep..mind is off but not into deep sleep..around 4.30 i woke up.mum say i not so hot as just now..nose leaking better.just now my mum help me message can t really feel the suaness when she message i feel a bit better compare to just now..than i still don t know what to do.

9.15 so lonely and sian..still never message me..i am thinking wild le..so many thing in my mind i try stay calm i really not well don t add more thing to me..and like she will care like that if she really care she won t leave me alone already..she is dame bad..don t talk about her..

just now went to watch the day the earth stood still nothing special the movie..
than went to play blazblue 1 match than play my new computer game blazblue play 1 match nia.than don t feel like playing le.my new computer game so sian than also never play le..
now i am surfing the net..haix..so early i not tired because just now rest than dont know how sia..i got a big feel she wont message or call me later or tomorrow..i also dont know what wrong just now she still can message me keep repling me than suddenly gone..i never late reply also..

so sian.so lonely.

2009-07-05T04:57:00.000-07:00

5th July 2009..tomorrow is school is already..day past and past and i am still alone..i really want thank Michael jackson for writing this song..this song is really just like me how i wish that is what i write..i love the song..this the kind of song people should give credit for it..thanks..

ALONE
LONELY SOUL
VANISH
COLD AND WHITE
PURE LONELINESS
NO ONE BE THERE
SAME

2009-07-03T07:14:00.000-07:00

3rd July 2009..today can say i am happy,sad and emotional..all pack in one.. i receive a note from baobao..i was shock that that is really for me and it is a note..than like that lor i cant say much here i say alot already..confidential.sorry.
than went bk home than come out again..
now at home ok lar bored and a little little lonely but not so jialart as bored lonely worry for her and scard she do something bad at me again and she mia for very long..

today go out go arcade at amk than go out to one place than come back than watch bai fen bai quite funny lor today de..honey if you reading this must watch ok..3rd july 2009 de..than go out again..i suddenly also forgot what i do le.tok to my friend also..guy dont worry honey is guy and you know de i know them quite long already..now feel like watch movie..abit tired and lazy..hahax..
kkies.and i found some nice combo video of blazblue the game.arcade de..

2009-07-01T23:47:00.000-07:00

2nd July 2009..i am very lonely and sad today..tomorrow we should be going out de..than she not well i just ok from not well.than my mind so many thing i going crazy le..i am going nuts now dont know want to wait for her message or go sleep i dont want continue like this already..no more and she keep giving me all these..dame fuck right.where got girlfriend keep leaving his boyfriend alone de and when she need me i will straight away be there always replying her message on time..than she never do at all.even have is something big happen than she guaii for a few day ya last few day very good dont know what happen the previous day than now like that again lor..she sick she from 8 plus am sleep until 10.36 heavent wake up than later at night i dont know how is she really sleeping i also dont know..aiya..tell her so many time also never listen any chio bu can treat me good de feel free talk to me ok..if can we be together than we share thing together ok..she keep bully me and play my feeling one ok than next not ok..i going loose hope on her already..tell her the truth i was trying to trust her saying that no matter what she wont let me alone for one day and i am still waiting and i think is really one day..after this day than say bar..and trusting her that aiya what ever lar.i suddenly forget everything..my mind is blank..i am so lonely and sad and dissapointed jealous all those feeling bad de i feeling right now..arghh..thought that i live in this world she got there by my side very good but you see keep leaving me alone..i garentee when i see her i really going mad this time..check out..

I am DEAD no one really CARES those people only know how to bully me..what ever i do how good also get bully by people..if people have heart i wont b so lonely now..people are heartless blood sucker bastard..than some people read this not happy than bully me again lor..sure one i write so i wont so sing ku later.i say so people will know mar than want take what ever action is up to them..i cry and cry of lonely

HONEY DONT ANGRY OR WHAT I DONT WANT BREAK WITH YOU LAR..IF YOU ARE.I AM GOING NOTE ALSO.

LONELY KILLS THE SOUL OF YOU.
DONT LIVE IN A LONELY LIFE THAT IS NOT GOOD.
I AM NO LONGER HER.
SUPER LONELY.
SUPER SAD.
SUPER MAD.
CANT FEEL HOW LIVE IS GOOD ANYMORE.
I CANT LAST ANY LONGER.
SUPER JEALOUS TO SEE PEOPLE GO OUT WITH THEIR LOVE ONE AND WATCH MOVIE ALL THESE ALWAYS BE TOGETHER..HUH ME LEH..

WHEN I NEED HER 90% SHE WONT BE THER FOR ME.
WHEN SHE NEED ME 90% I WILL BE THER.THE REMAINING 10% BECAUSE SHE KEEP MIA HOW TO BE BY HER SIDE.YOU SEE THE DIFFERENT THIS IS WHAT I AM FACING NOW..

SHE STILL SAY TOMORROW COME FIND ME I DONT SO ALREADY..

TEARS WILL FALL FROM YOUR EYES.
LIE WILL ALWAYS BE LIES.
FROM THE DAY I REALISE I AM STILL TRAP IN THIS BLACK DYE.
SAVE ME HEAVEN.
PEOPLE ALWAY FORGET WHO IS LOOKING RIGHT TO THEIR EYE.
PEOPLE WILL FORGET ME.

BUY WHO CARE TO READ THIS NOW.NO ONE RIGHT.

Sorry for long time never update..having a very hard time..now is better..few day back i was at home very hungry than i went to make hot dog to eat not sure how long to put in the microwave to make hot.i put for about 1 min 10 sec.than when i saw the hot dog after 1 min 10 sec.i gave a name to the hog dog the "disgusting dog".not really a nice name really is not that nice in looks.check it out.!!

i bought my system dvd and a masa deck from my friend.

the masa deck looks very cool in close up.check it out..

2009-06-11T02:22:00.000-07:00

11th June 2009..Sorry for long time missing..i finally bought my Razer Diamondback mouse.

2009-05-31T20:07:00.000-07:00

1st June 2009..dame it wake up so early 8 omg..than what thing to do..i watch movie than abit of tv..

back from going junction 8 and bugis with my friend..now at home le..but very tired..sian tomo get test dont care le lar..i saw someone i think litter than police fine them hahax..just outside bugis when i walk over to bugis street the bus stop also got police dnt know why..my friend want buy spade shirt wad..

New psp coming to town..Here is some of the design they still deciding..

i watching tv now later i write..kkies see ya..

2009-05-30T23:49:00.000-07:00

31st May 2009..yesterday's post i write halfway never write about afternoon and night because i am outside..So go back to the previous post than read..

So Bloody god dame it boring want try dont wake up so early also cant..i already wake up than dad ask me get out of the bed and he going buy food than eat le..than so boring so i try watch prince of tennis anime, practice pandora and try study for my thursday exam.and tuesday also got test sia..dame sian...just watch prince of tennis finish and now i am studying than later than do magic i now resting..
so i go back study first than continue to write i got time...hahax...
okkies..bb..Cheers'

I am back..i go write yesterday de post..brb..

2009-05-29T09:31:00.000-07:00

30th May 2009..Omg!! my exam is coming soon Tuesday got test than Thursday got exam..found some video think quite interesting..It is kind of lame never mind i will just post it..

I went to sim lim wanted to buy my Razer diamondback mouse but i think and think should i buy..when i was talking with my mum at home she say about my basketball spx cards..she say the card are too expensive than when i am working it will be easier for me to buy the things i wanted..so ya buy these cards are so expensive than buy le i got no money already..so i was more into the Razer diamondback mouse than the basketball spx cards..my friend which stay quite near to me hse wait for me at my hse downstair and together go meet my another close friend he lonely wad..hahax.we donw know why take 54 instead of 74 we going ang mo kio to take 130 meet my another friend.than we stop and take 74..when we reach ang mo kio i went to 7-eleven to buy drinks the weather is so warm and hot than i saw the drink Rino water is a cooling water than releave body heatiness than got discount 1.90 per bottle i drink it in bus i even took a photo of it with my handphone..lame right i know..hahax.i will upload it later..my friend call and he say he will be waiting for us at our school bus stop.he keep calling seh saying why we taking so long hahax..than all blame on me say i prepare so long..hahax..than we reaching sim lim wha the time was about 3:40 around there..i got a movie to catch..than we went to sim lim tower there was nothing than we walk to sim lim..i went to hunt for my Razer diamondback mouse and one of my friend went to hunt for the price of his laptop..than i went to videopro the model i want they have but the colour i want they dont have they only have the red one..than i went walking than suddenly found a shop that have and there are alot of them color also got alot and the model also have alot they even sell Razer keyboard than a special keyboard by Razer for Ipod and plug your ipod on to it and hear song i think and that is the shop that i bought my external hard disk from than i saw the price 107 than i never see how many GB is that lar if the same as mine dame lolx sia.aiya buy electronic thing and computer things is like tat the lar..than they got give me a little discount you know lar the people there are ******* that why i dont like going there than people will ask me i dont like go the place than still go for wad the answer is just go there buy my mouse than that it and my friend want see laotop than see nia..than it was about time for my movie to start le it was about 4.10 after we done what we want to do in sim lim.than i decided to take taxi to junction 8 because my movie start at 4.30 so i reach there faster than i expected..i reach there about 4.20..than meet my parents at the cinema buying food i was hungry so ask my mum to buy nacho combo for me..than in the cinema eat le not hungry le and OOPS i forgot to tell you what am i watching hahax..in a cinema dont know what you watching is so niek lor.."Terminator Salvation".that the title of the movie..than after the movie i went arcade play awhile than go popular with my brother he want see books than went to best play abit piano when my parents are in fair price buying groceries.when i receive a call from dad saying can go le than we went to fair price to help them to carry thing they are not superman or superwoman..

When we reach home my brother friend is coming over to stay at my house..than we play the eye of judgment game hahax..than practice magic and show some to him..than when is around 2 plus am i want watch tv suddenly dont feel like watching le..than off all the lights than in my room took some photo of my Razer mouse diamondback at that time i feel quite good i can have some money left can spent on other things..want to use the money to bring someone to eat and watch movie de..but she is in another diemention than i cant connect with her.the photo i will upload it later.i sleep at around 3.10 am..

Here are the photos

2009-05-27T07:01:00.000-07:00

27th May 2009..today day turn out to be good..but my head keep abit pain seh..i found some video in youtube quite interesting so share with you all..

2009-05-23T10:11:00.000-07:00

24th May 2009..

New Yu gi oh booster is coming up this 18th July 2009..

2009-05-20T04:17:00.000-07:00

20th May 2009..Just went to school have test than come back already the test is quite challenging and the paper did not state the instructions well enough for us to understand..

i found come very funny video that really make people laugh..hahax..just check it out..

ya nice after a long day of stress is going make you gone laughing and feel better..that wad i did..

2009-05-14T07:48:00.000-07:00

14th May 2009..today go school take exam lor..the peer to peer network and configuring router..than teacher keep change time to later than we got so much free time like 2 hrs and more..than we go play basketball our class come play nia..than my other friends come in and join and honey go take test i feel bad seh..like never say much just ask her take test and also alone go up to take test..

than we play basetball till 2.40 than take test the peer to peer network one part i cant do but lucky got answer from friend hahax..than got all correct i think..hahax

and for the router think if not wrong i got all correct is all in the file that i memories already so should be no proble startng i like see what are they asking but in the end i saw change hostname,put password for line vty 0 15,put password for line con 0..than i start know wht i am doing le..
i am quite sure until i do so fast than ask teacher check and sign..wha now school like min sing le..need sign hahax..not the first time..scard i got mistake but i got check abit..sure kana say by my baobei if she heard this..nvm she will read this hahax..
than i play basketball for about 2 hrs than now my face like kana sun burn than face not good and red and hot..hope tomorrow will ok..i mayb want take photo with honey we going watch show and mayb go takashimaya..

2009-05-12T06:27:00.000-07:00

12th May 2009..today go school than go home le..nth much today..practicing my configuring router because the exam is around the corner..so boring nothing to do than..
finish my trail version of final fantasy 13..is really nice game worth waiting..i am so tired yawn yawn..

2009-05-11T00:58:00.001-07:00

11th May 2009..wha so fast 11th may le..going exam also..sian..today just go school than after that want play basketball and run 2.4 than raining so never go lor than me and honey go eat than went to bishan bought my final fantasy advent children complete blue-ray collection version is dame cool i tell you i took some photo of it you got go check it out..there is also finaly fantasy 13 demo version..now who is talking now.now you know is really cool right..hahax..so than just sit back and check it out..

I tried the movie of final fantasy 7 advent children i took a photo of a part where cloud is so cool..

2009-05-08T09:51:00.000-07:00

9th May 2009..I have been drinking just went play basketball today so tired stress up tensed up body aches head giddy and pain..and all these thing happen do people really care the answer is "NO" those bastard mother fuckers only need something than ask from me than just let me rot like this..

Off to bed now..

2009-04-29T05:34:00.000-07:00

29th April 2009..Today day are not bad..today open my new deck split spades deck with honey in bus she also got the feel of opening new deck the feeling..hahax..she say not bad..hahax..and this is cool enough this what about this..when i go back home i receive a letter guess what my jerry nugget has arrive in singapore and sent to my door step already..bt i was in school so cant take they leave me a note dont worry i went to take the product..mayb tomorrow i will make a video out of it..i will update it in my dandmagic blog..located here >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

2009-04-26T06:57:00.000-07:00

26th April 2009..i dont know that wrong with my blog the layout has change..this new layout sucks..i prefer the previous one is much more functions..okok..sorry yesterday did not post those initial d photo i have them with me now..
check it out..

Before

After

See the difference between the two photo i completed more maps and on the road to completing the story..

And one more thing i want to show you guys i took a photo outside of my house and guess what it turn out to be very nice..
Check it out..

And i was playing ps3 today and i was running away from a bear and just what i ran into a bear at first i was shock it was in front of me than i realize that it was a fake..
Check it out!!

Warning this is a fake bear.

Wow look at the bear isnt it real the gun i killed someone and stole his gun to use..The real bear dont manage to get me i think i killed him shoot the gas tank and boom..i fly out of the window..

2009-04-25T00:54:00.000-07:00

25th April 2009..clarr i update le hor..dont say me never update..today go meet my friend at amk than saw alot of my friends..than after she go home i saw my another friend her birthday got a quite cute de girl with them want take number neh bt never so sian lor.than see like keep looking at me i feel so strange..than i went to arcade i saw them again she pointing at me dont noe what got a feel that she got interest in me but i cant bhb and i also so ugly dont think she point at me is something i am looking for de.than after tat want take number than dont hab le..haix..haix..nvm..

than i went to arcade play than saw my friend again than want to reward myself by buying myself initial d 5 card hahax..the game ok lar bt hor really very different from all the initial i ever play..is very relexcing..i will try take photo than upload later tonight..

and i found something new yu gi oh series coming out again.is very cool check it out.

Just back from eating with my parents and i eat fish think got bone stuck in my throat very not well in my throat..

2009-04-24T08:35:00.000-07:00

24th April 2009.. So dame angry i know that my handphone is on my hand than i still open the door with my hand..than i drop my phone i feel so angry at myself and someone..and this is the first time drop my phone..ARGHHH!!!!!!!!! arghh!!!!!!!!!! arghh!!!!!!!!!!!!! Dame it..!!!!!!!...i dont know how i am going to deal with this thing..

2009-04-09T05:25:00.000-07:00

9th April 09..Today went to cut hair...den go bk home..ya then took some picture of my magic than try taking some picture of me..but one pic i think not bad bt hair i anyhw do..hahax..

See so ugly de..hahax..regreat never adjust my hair..

There is more but think not nice to even post here..The magic picture please go to my magic blog at DandMagic

2009-04-08T04:20:00.000-07:00

8th April 09.. Finally i got back on track..it was just so mada mada neh..today go out with my secondary friend to marine and suntec city and i play kof i lost to people seh..hahax..den i go novena for my piano today's piano ok lar..all the song teacher ask me do all ok lor..than i go home le lor now writing before that i excidentally scratch myself den i scratch one time only than it look like there is two..i just put cream tat it..And when i taking bus i hearing mp3 i think i saw my R8 in real life de tis time is abit different you know what different it is the r8 mayb is some kind of rich singaporean because he upgrade until very different and i am quite sure it is the r8 because the light and near the light i saw same thing i saw his back and still red light dame F*** lor..

Cheers'

2009-04-07T07:22:00.000-07:00

7th April 09..

Today Honey is back not today lar abt 1 days already..dandmagic is updated..i got one very cool photo i took outside of my house..

2009-04-05T07:42:00.000-07:00

5th April 2009..

Hi everyone this maybe the last post i am writing i these few days having a hard time living as usual..just say thanks for everyone here that take care of me and when i am lonely talk to me..but now i think time has change people are changing now all they know is when i need someone to talk or go out with no one is there for me..these few days i not sure what wrong with honey suddenly just vanish.vanish for 2 days than came back then just recently vanished again now i think is the 3rd days already or 4th lost count..her mum use her phone say she sick dont feel like eating all these and she say she very sad..dnt i was so worry dnt know that to do..she wont talk to me..and reply my message than i think alot until i am almost mad...waiting her call for days and night did not sleep well cant sleep and late sleep but who care no one cares i also dont know what went wrong with people..they fucking treating me as a toy..i totrure myself to run all these so that i am so tired that when i reach home bath i can sleep dnt need to think but i always stop i cant the way i was last time..

ok i will write till here..greatly thanks everyone.if i not in this world i will bless you all..thanks..
Cheers'

2009-04-02T11:23:00.000-07:00

2rd April 09..So boring today go out with my friend den come bk le..haix..as usual dont know what wrong keep M.I.A.ing..i now is 2.24 and is late i just cant sleep i dnt know why..feeling bad again..bt today not so bad..just heart, giddy and feel like vomiting.i cant eat also...i dnt know what to do nw..anyone here can tok to me i am dame lonely out here i may catch a cold can i just hab a hugg..hugg hugg hugg and take care of me..

Neehhhhh!!!! as usual no 1 even have just say say nia say for the sack of saying..lolx..
ok gtg now..
moodless to write any more..
Bye-Bye..

2009-03-30T20:24:00.000-07:00

31st March 2009..

Tomorrow is april fool..I am crazy with my thoughts..Help!!! But as usual no one help..

2009-03-11T07:44:00.000-07:00

11th March 09..go school then tired den go take bus go home le..dame tired at first..den after at home den slowly not so le lor..I have some photo from koera i think is so so nice nia..forcing myself to post hahax..you people know me right..i dislike taking photo even i took wnt ever upload to sth or wad..i went koera took abt can say about 300 photo..i took a few this is the few..hahax..and i still think is ugly got even worst de lor..dont know isit me anot..look different in singapore look different in the mirror all these lor..my hand like cut in koera den i see other photo is like eeehh..why hair so long le..i cant explain it..

Waiting for my dad and brother from the toilet i ask my mum just take this photo for fun..stupid face..hahax.

I climb to the Dont know that mountain very high den try so stun step quite near to the end the take a photo cos than i can get a good view..Ugly hor act cool onli..

This photo my mum took i think cos she onli wnt say anything i take this kind of weird photo..hahax..and the fake snow is going to fall..You will see in the next photo..

So here is it the snow look so real right..this photo is really ugly dont want o upload the just add to my blog like very nice to see..hahax..jkjk..cos of the fake snow..

2009-03-01T02:14:00.000-08:00

1st March 2009..Wha so fast sian lor..so dame ****ing sian..wednesday gt test le..and i also ggt piano..really lazy to practice or what neh..i so tired also..duno wad wrong with me..

2009-02-25T06:05:00.000-08:00

25th February 09..Today go school nia..den go piano lor..tired arh..

2009-02-20T07:43:00.000-08:00

20th February 09..just go buy deck of cards den go home le..want go play basketball or play pool de bt my friend say no money..and when i reach home my bro the basketball gone le..den when he come bk he bring the ball to school..den ask him want go play basketball near my house mar..den we go le..den want go meet honey de..bt i play basketball le..so when go bk call her tok lor..haix..

2009-02-13T08:07:00.000-08:00

14th February 09..and still no sign of andthensome dvd out..hahax.okkies..busy working on D.Magic..my magic blog..and i jus saw the site and found it the release date is out..check out my d.magic blog for mre information..

2009-02-11T04:37:00.000-08:00

11th February 09..wow..finally i gt my spelling right for February..hahax..kkies..erm getting busy with my blog..going change layouts and going b adding deck preview and mayb even free magic tutorial to those guys out there..tks..my honey msg me le gtg go bb..

2009-02-10T03:32:00.000-08:00

10th February 09..sry there few days nv write arh..i very busy arh..and tired..i monday play basketball until nw so tired..and also busy with piano magic all these lor..i tis friday gt piano den still heavent really practice and tis saturday also performance duno can make it mar..and i going attend another lesson after my performance..nw feel like sleeping..tired muscle ache also..and thinking tat should i defer army anot..ya is ture lar.after army dnt feel like study le..hahax..den duno wad lor..

i am so excited for andthensome dvd coming to singapore..and i think gt 1 mre thing suddenly 4gt wad is it le..ok nvm..i tired le wad..

2009-02-04T06:26:00.000-08:00

4th February 09..so fast seh..think around end of tis month coming out dan and dave new dvd seh..title andthensome..funny rite..today busy arh..nw doing school project tomo mus pass up le..alone do nvm..kkies..bb...

2009-02-02T05:14:00.000-08:00

2nd February 09..today arh play basketball until pek cek..hahax..lazy to tell wad happen..nvm..lesson today end dame early i jus go 1 lesson den can go home le..so we go play basketball..okk..den me and my group of friends sitting dwn at the block duno where..the wind so windy seh..den we all like riding motobike..hahax..the wind blowing towards us like riding bike wad..hahax..okkies..lame i noe..den call the magic shop say my dvd today come le mar..cos she say her shippment always every friday come de bt duno why today the shipmment like slower lor den hab to w8..

2009-02-01T03:23:00.000-08:00

1st February 09..wow..tat fast..OMG...i think i am sick u noe..my throat nt gd keep cough and gt flue also..tomo mayb gt NARFA duno can do mar..and my mouth gt oucer sia..arh...and i jus found out sth gd today i want tell u wad u mus guess and i will gib u clues hahax..okkies..i jus write this den my parent cme bk le..hahax..okkies..
today jus go j8 buy cards den go arcade 4 awhile today lose to my friend the brother.lolx..den top up my bus card den go home le..

so can u tell me wad is it..hahax..if u noe the answer den gd..hahax..if duno i also duno wad to do..hahax..kkies..bb..w8ing 4 honey to call..

2009-01-30T01:09:00.000-08:00

30th January 09.. wha..i duno wad happen with me..am i sick or wad..i feel so tired..jus go school come bk den sleep lor..nw jus wake up..my throat like nt well seh..scard sia i normally dnt sleep in the afternoon or morning bt nw i am..duno wad wrng with me..

2009-01-24T06:23:00.000-08:00

24th January 09..wow wow wowwww... long time nv write 4 u people le hor..hahax..ookies...today jus go j8 den arcade den nw at home le..quite simple day..sry arh..cos i busy with facebook and other things..hahax..kkies..going bath le..11 gt my show to watch can miss..bb..

2009-01-15T05:08:00.000-08:00

15th January 09 le..today dnt feel like write alot jus busy doing magic and toking to honey..today jus after school go buy magic things den go novena pay my piano den go bk home le my bro at hme le..okkies..

2009-01-14T03:56:00.000-08:00

14th January 09..today me and honey very gd wor can feel mus better den yesterday heop honey read tis le will mre happy..hahax..honey ok like tat can le if ok with u den continue wroking hard tats even better..okkies..tks..gb u a kiss MUAKS!!! to honey onli...
watching tv channel 8 lor..den see youtube magic and practice piano..w8ing 4 honey's call den we tok..cos she promise me after ah ma there den will miss call me den i call bk..

honey really miss call me bk seh..nw toking to her le..bb..hahax..and i want is deck seh..looks so cool lor..i show u..

tis the deck the black deck isit cool...

tis is the deck the kings and queens..aces of spade nice hor..nt bad lar..the kings looks very simple..

ok lar..tired le go sleep le..bb..

2009-01-13T02:40:00.000-08:00

13th January 09..erm..today nth mus to say lor..jus go school den go home den tok to honey le..today nth much to tok cos today the day end out quite well..so simple and special day..ohh ya can say tis..Chinese New Year coming le..den i saw one shirt very nice neh..den think very peii chinese new year den and i also want buy magic also Hmmm..den hw neh..see 15 den gt my pay den say lor..i gt a feel want play the arcade soccer again neh..hahahax...tired neh dnt feel like practice piano and want practice also bt tired lolx..tok rots me..nw wathing the live rain dancing and singing ranisim..do u feel i tok to day very funny and different like tat..or maybe if i gt my pay den mayb is enought ok let me count..hahax..kkies..

nw watching 7 oclock the show..okkies..later den tok..

2009-01-08T22:41:00.000-08:00

9th January 09..so sian lor..today so early finish school 10.30 seh..haix..sian lor..so early finish den go home watch movie lor..den hw watch bai fen bai..and practing piano..think gt improve abit..nw hand also the same thing abit suan lor..hahax..ya..sian lar sian lar..

2009-01-03T21:33:00.000-08:00

4th January 09..wha raining sian..still nt well i going with my friend bugis walk walk..

2009-01-03T09:49:00.001-08:00

3rd January 09..so sian lor..nw 1.49 le..i am moodless and tired i go sleep le..nite..

2009-01-02T05:03:00.000-08:00

2nd January 09 le..3 mre days going school open..sry so busy with my paino..kkies..

2009-01-01T05:15:00.000-08:00

1st January 09..tats fast nxt year le..wha 17 yrs old le neh..today whole family my dad like ok neh today bt mum jus nt right nvm..we decided to go buy furnuture cos the table i broke de duno hw also..kkies..den i show ym dad the new magic shop the name card den he say he noe where den we go lor..he bring us wha like so gd hor..den we see furnuture tat time nth to buy neh..den he bring me go magic shop den i bought the card seleves ghost engraving..den we go thomsom near by and buy den bought le..den we go my dad new office see den go thomsom plaza walk den eat..den nw den go bk..hahax..i think my computer is going crazy suddenly so slow think gt virus..and i am feeling nt well headache pain piano stress and want vomit i am feeling weak nw..jus love taking panadol..

2008-12-31T08:59:00.000-08:00

GOD DAME IT i write den hang den close the window nw is all gone..fuck..

wow wow wow..31st December 08 le...today wake up at 3,30 late rite same as last time den after tat watch tv practice piano and use computer all these lor..den after tat watch movie den nite le..so fucking boring birthday and no birthday also abt the same as normal day..nth tat fantastic..u noe wad from i woke up until abt 10 plus den msg me sry i dnt entertain all these rubbish so lng MIA den come and tell me those unwanted fucking hell nosense..the best part is nw she like keep toking to me dream on lar..try yr luck..told u u want celebrate wad ever thing if i am nt involve den the cant involve any other things..say u listen rite..die also say dont want..den still do..also duno she went celebrate anot if yes tat gd i can write mre..if no jus skip tat part tats all..want to make it lng understand..kkies..nw i am jus hacking care her and do my things let her taste her own medicine..hahax..cool is it..ya 4gt it 1st january 09 le.09 le yeah bt i can still smell the nth has change..hahax..tat part of life still oung to understand tat all..kkkies nt going tok so much crap le..i going find things to do..bb..btw 30th my birthday so little people tell me happy birthday and present or card..hahax..kkies..

2008-12-28T03:05:00.000-08:00

28th December 08..2 mre days my birthday still heavent receive any present hahax...kkies..today i woke up at around 2 seh..hahax..den i eat watch tv use computer cos my bro tution den after he go swimming le..den i use lor..den i watch movie after tat do nth youtube see magic site all tis..keep looking at the tricks THREAD by wayne houchin duno safe or easy to do mar..ya..later buy den difficult to do..kkkies..jus dame sian..feel like go out awhile neh..i go bath first den say bar..

erm..after bath nv go out le..watch another movie siao 1 my dad jus cme bk home den i nv on light den he like nt happy why nv on light i told him off why like so pek cek like tat..i want add i owe u sth isit mus go pek cek bt i didnt..den i on light he kaopeh so much say the bill high i nv on the bill will lower wad..den still tok so much keep haolian tat he gt alot of money den tis kind of cheap bill tok so much..den tok until nth to day le den start his most famous sentence..which is "oohhh...ya...nw i very gd cn tok bk le hor..if u so gd go b lawyer lar..den u very gd u cn walk out of tis hse nw go earn yr money u gt alot of friends rite they can feed u de..u think friends 4 ever arh..so nw still watch movie...

2008-12-24T23:41:00.000-08:00

25th December 08 le..wow..tat fast after i come bk from koera..hahax..erm..5 mre days my birthday le..btw wish u all a merry christmas and a happy new year..haix..so boring at hme ytd and today christmas celebration nth special..jus go with 2 secondary school friends watch movie watch bed time story..and we were all wet and we went the wrong way and late for the show..pro rite..hahax..and today my plain mayb go dhoby gaut walk walk and buy my magic dvd..hahx..and 4gt to tell u the dvd i bought the other days "CONTROL" wayne houchin..ya..and i watching movie lolx..where gt people christmas eve and christmas watch movie at home and alone watch some more jus making me sick fucking hell boring..alone wathcing some fucking movies..wha gt new trick and new deck in the magic shop hahx..i getting it..the deck i mean hahax..kkies..later den write..kkies..bb..watching movie arh..shooter..hahax..i will upload those things i bought and heavent..hahax..fuck i gt an attack in the computer trojen horse backdoor..bk bt it is resolved..fucking viruses so dame irritaing..and my expire le..going buy new 1 hahx..so many thing nid buy..lolx..and want buy bag also..hahx..

The new trick which i mention jus nw..$65

This the new deck jus come out which is called Karnival Deck. Think christmas deck bar..$16

The Ace of Spade from the Karnival Deck is really beautiful u gt to check it out..
It will look like tis

The Ace of Spade

My first magic DVD i bought..$65

wow..bk from meeting honey..ya sian tomo my mum nt working and ask me go with her buy my cloths and shoe..den cant really meet honey.kkies..jus bk from meeting honey go her hse downstair pass me my birthday present yeah u noe my birthday coming..hahax..kkies..den i so tired when i reach yio chu kand mrt my headache seh and tired den suddenly like ok le..den nw at home le lor..jus open my new poker deck cool lor..look so diffrent from the preview..and my magic dvd erm.i think sth nt right with it..where gt magic teach nv see video de all words like powerpoint and sure gt performance de wad..and explained..all cant click neh..tomo i go call them..kkies...and i gt my david beckham playing card..hahx.arcade de..haxhax..nw toking to honey dont feel like write le..kkies..bb..

2008-12-20T20:55:00.000-08:00

21st December 08 le..wha so fast le arh..nw den i noe is 21 december le going my birthday le..sry arh come bk from koera den 4gt about writing hahax..kkies..erm if i free i will upload those pic and other things..cos alot seh..hahax..wha sian lor..duno wad to do watch show until sian le..no game to play hab lar psp lazy take..

wake up eat den use computer le..heng my bro gt tution if nt cant use le despo 4 playing computer..hahax..if he study like tat also can likt so despo sure score de..hahx..kkies..later den write cos the day heavent pass yet..

2008-12-07T23:52:00.000-08:00

8th December 08 le..wow..so fast tomo going koera le..hahx..today i write short okkies..i going meet my dear le..ya...kkies.tat all hahax..short..if can i nite can write den tomo write i night flight arh..ya...kkeis..i keep think once tomo i go le hahax..kkies..

2008-11-30T04:57:00.000-08:00

30th November 08 le..tomo exam le no really hab the mood to study neh..stress lar..stress lar..haix..problem everytime..sian sian also..tomo 1st december le so fast i going overseas le..going koera from 9th to 16 i think..hahax..ya...

today at home do the computer project honey sick den i keep do duno she do le mar..den nv ans my call or sms..den at nite den tell me nw w8 stupidly..lolx..and study abit on tomo the exam scard do nt well or fail nt really easy all the test or wad i jus pass nia..sian..kkies..bb..

2008-11-29T00:46:00.000-08:00

29th November 08..wha going end of year le...fast fast..den exam going ok le..monday den our test heavent pass up is ytd mus pass up de..kkies..den nw write abit den going with my mum to j8 to eat den ho home le gt exam nid study..hahax..kkies..den OMG!! honey is sick she tell me her tan green de..OMG why like tat ytd nt tat bad...And i want buy tis deck neh call ultragaff about $60..XX so many thing want buy...haix..pok le..hahx..kkies..hai hao lar is all the thing i want buy is x de..so keep say no money..lolx.think so..
here the pic..

Cool isit it..the cover is black bt inside the card is normal red de..hahax..creator my wayne..hahax..and next year gt a very expensive card tat sell $110 nw..still increasing..den nxt year gt 1 pack call Gold Series..English de very expensive $50 per pack..ya..bt than the japanese which is nxt year is abt $7.50 if the shop want earn duno hw much...

The pictures:

This is the pack and the card i saying is tis..

Cool isnt it..hahax..ya nw toking to honey and watching tv the hauting..hahax..ya..kkies..den she is busy den awhile mre den tok to her le..hahax..kkies..c ya..

2008-11-18T03:47:00.000-08:00

18th November 08..Wha kao..today sueii seh..today i go canteen eat food cos abit hungry den ordering plata the new DM catch me 4 hair long i noe i noe my hair long i also going cut le..fk him lor..new DM act like very serious abt work..toking to policeman big meh..i tok to policeman senier..lolx..kkies...nvm..catch alrdy catch le..den when i was eating food with my teacher the DM also at canteen no work to do de meh so free DM to cathch people hair long all these meh..den he say he will send email to my teacher say i nid cut hair siao seh..kkies..den DM tell my teacher say ask me go cut hair fk rite.say email le email lar..den tell me go cut and and him the thing want act smart 4 wad tell my teacher..fucking KPO seh..tat why old singaporeans nth to do den find tis kind of stupid thing to do too free le sometimes in tis case is too free..

den bao and me go vivo walk walk nt really lar..go there use the toilet hahax..den go home le lor..den nw studying and watching anime Tv and wariting blog lor..and w8ing to bao to call me soon le i can feel it watch watch hahax..kkies..bb..

2008-11-15T03:45:00.000-08:00

15th November 08..So sian sia..Sian sian sian..Nothing to do today jus go celebrate my friend birthday nia..like tat den go home le..sian den at home nth to do le..sian..arghh...Fucking sian..

2008-11-13T01:48:00.000-08:00

13th November 08 le..sry long time nv write hahax..erm..ytd stress stress stress..bt nw ok le nt going to relvealing..hahax...kkies..i jus bk from dhoby gaut buy magic suddenly go buy de hahax..think and think den go lor..den bought normal black the deck..cost me 10 hahax..kkies..ya..den the nxt i going buy tatoo joe the dvd and buy a red normal deck to collect hahax..kkies..nw watching show and going to study le cos i gt show to watch den nid do some revice den watch nt really ready also haix..stay calm..hahax..kkies later den write ok..bb...

2008-10-31T02:34:00.000-07:00

31st October 2008..so fast seh..going november le den my dear birthday le den go holiday den my birthday le..den nxt year le..haix..life sometimes are difficult 4 me..sry arh..fews days nv write and want write le bt lazy and gt a few thing to write wad..alot to write..den hahax..actually want write in there and so nxt time can read or wad..tis date i and dear go where hahax..erm..nw i try write bar..

29th October 2008 is a wednesday i gt piano wad..i duno why like sth simple bt i still gt the stong feeling tat tis day is very happy i will tell u nw..wha lan my hse here like the same sport car keep roar his or her engine pass my hse so noisy..sure is guy de..hahax..act cool..lolx..tat day i saw a lambo at my hse the bus stop drive pass me..hahax..bt nt as nice as R8 think the new casino royal gt R8 neh...kkies i continue le..just i went piano den dear w8 4 me lor..w8 my piano finish bring me there also peii me all these and after tat my piano we go walk walk awhile den go home den she bring me to bus stop also..hahax..done alot of things 4 me wor..hahax..tks my dear muaks a kiss 4 u..when u reading tis..hahax..den we msg den i go home i call her tok lor den she reah home den still can tok seh..den we sleep de nxt day lor..nxt day also very gd i later den write hahax..watching movie...hahax..

30th October 08...

2008-10-24T21:19:00.000-07:00

25 October 08 le..sry t hese few days nv write lazy arh..and nth much to write also..nw i playing game lor..install new game play nice ok..cooking de..hahax..and wrying abt sth..i can sence sth is going to b wrong..hope it is nt going to happen..baobei why ytd i go bath le..den i sms u nv reply le isit u go sleep le or wad..den i w8 until nw..u still nv reply mayb u really sleeping bar..bt u so tired meh..tat day u in school u dont looks tired or wad..wad happen tell me neh..and yr msn also why write like tat..haix..u arh..

i went to bishan with my mum guess wad today is the luckiest day i am the luckiest guy in the world hahax...First my mum bring me go buy my camera and heng gt special promotion heng again rite..normal they gib a bag 1 extra battery and 1 4 gb memory card also can b use 4 psp den gt promotion den they gib 8gb the mermory card..so i can use 4 my psp also..

and i went to the arcade i finally slowly getting the hang of chris simple combo..hahax..kkies..

and i went to the card shop buy cards tis is the best part..i jus kpo ask them gt tis card mar..i jus go in tok with them nv really want buy den jus ask abt card crossroad of choas the pack..actually i dont want go in the..den jus go in 4 fun cos saturday walk abit more..den when i want go home tat time cos i was seeling ps3 game gt a few game come out..den i ask them gt the pack mar..they so dnt hab den they gib me the new box..hahax..den i feel and feel suddenly guess wad i feel dao sth wrong with the pack cos so diff nt foil or 3d nv feel b4 in my life first time..den i happy le gt the pack den i buy another pack like hab..den nvm i pay le lucky i gt money also..den i feel like open le..den cos want let dear hw happy i am wad dear want me b happy i happy let her see or hear den she will also happy cos i these few days like bad mood duno why..kkies..den i go home tat time i am sure i gt the ghost rare and the red bird cos onli 1 rare tat gt ghost rare..hahax..kkies..and another pack i gt a super rare ok lar..hahax..later go bath play with my camera..hahax..see i take myself or people take 4 me nice mar..hahax..cos i ugly wad..hahax..kkies..

2008-10-20T03:59:00.000-07:00

20th October 08..today arh...jus go school nia..den after tat go home le..the magic shop call me neh..say the thing i order come le..i thought friday..hahax..ok..den tomo mayb go take le cant w8 le hahahx..kkies..nth mus to say le..den later go sleep le..i eat le..tat all..

2008-10-17T03:10:00.001-07:00

17th October 08..today another so call best day of my life..hahax..today arh no school den go out with my precious baobei..first we go bishan peii me play arcade first den after tat i was deciding to go magic shop buy new deck..i was so excited cant w8 gt the hand on it..ok den we really go buy hahax..den after tat we went sim lim buy sth for her mum i think..buy le hor we took mrt bt i going find my mum cos i finally decide to see a doctor abt my heart..i go and do the duno wad test,test the heart beat and rate bar..den do le like dame fast lor..one scan like tat $25 ex hor..den after tat the doctor say tat nth happen with me..den i was ok ok nia lar..pass the simple test den see hw lor..doctor gib me a muscle releave so wont tense up my heart muscle..den i go novena and see my yu gi oh card cos gt new cards..den i go home le..nw at home lor..watching tv nia..

2008-10-14T02:51:00.000-07:00

14th October 08 le..sry ytd first day of school nv write..nw i at home nth to do dne can write...hahax..kkies..
wow...today hahax..sth alomst happen hahax..will scare the shit out of my classmates hahax..no lar..hahax..just tat i and baobei together we like hiding thing from people duno why neh..haix..see my classmate like gt gf or wad no1 even care lor..jus oohh he gt gf hold hand all these den me neh people are jus eyeing on me or wad lor..tat time we went to novena think the first day of school my friends also eyeing on me thought we hold hands or wad..haix..den today we try put i like nt ready still gt the fear of letting people saw us like hold hand or wad cos people later say wad i spoy people relationship is nt spoy lor..is hard to slove tis puzzle..bt people wont undersatand..nvm..i already told her le..try slowly gibing them clue or wad..den when the time comes the feel and ready den it will naturally come..den tat it..hahax..

kkies..den after school i was abit angry cos like wasting our time all these sitting in the canteen waiting 4 friends..den nvm..she ask me i going home or follow them..den wad abt we all neh..wha lou..i dont want b the person who like want stick with her or wad lar..like siao over her like tat..bt she nv show to me..nvm..i want she to like really want find time to b with me even a short period of time..den i will automatic treat her better then she treat me always like tat..hahax..she noe wad i mean i lazy to explain here..ok lar..den my friend want go magic shop den i also going den i was thinking abt den she hw i dont want her lonely go home or wad..i go den she will b alone den people say wha leave her like tat..den i want go and dont want her b lonely even she say wont wont i also as a good bf in secret identidy peii her also rite..hahax..den she also nid go her ahma hse later her mum scold her..den she peii me awhile go to the magic shop den she nid go bk le bt i gt peii her bk and i jus now angry cos waste time den she peii me go magic shop i feel bad..den i felt sry 4 her..den ok lar..hahax..nice realationship..hahax..
jus hope 4 the better..scard me by yr action..hahax..kkies..i go bath le..later if hab time or gt thing to write den i write ok..hahax..and tomo is jay chou album le..remember to bring the card to collect..and the gd news is baobei is also following me also..hahax..and jay chou new MV rocks..

2008-10-11T23:17:00.000-07:00

12th October 08.tomo school re-open le..hahax..when school re-open mean 2 mre days can gt jays new album le after the delay..kkies..today quite tired..and duno why these few days my heart like very pain and suan..den my mum ask me go see doctor she find a free days bring me do see..a number of people is wrying abt me..so after telling sth to dear the other day nt sure when..hope life in school and outside has change 4 me nt nv change lar..i jus want it duno hw say like nt nid scard tis scard tat people see lar or wad ever..ya..den if there sth in me den i cure it den hope i really survive to enjoy true love and warmness between humans..

kkies..nw arh er..watching anima d.gray man jus started to watch..hahax..feel like go buy gel den think expensive den nv go buy le..cos i ytd cut my hair mar..quite man yi with it..hahax..den nid style abit den gt their gel lor..and also very nice smell neh the gel..hahax..bt $36 expensive rite..hahax..kkies..

2008-10-07T09:03:00.000-07:00

7th Oct 08..wow jus like tat so fast OMG i dont like tis..very fast i going 17 le..den nxt year will b hell lots of thing happening i jus can feel from my nerves..OMG..sry recently i was jus so crrazy abt magic..and busy with sth secret hahax.wont expose nvm..

i wana buy PSP..i am so edicted to game like Monster Hunter 2 these kind of stuffs..and i going cut hair bt tis week hope it will turn out gd prove me wrng..hahax..i can feel tat sth bad in me i feel lately..i felt very easily angry by wad i nt really sure..bt i can feel the anger in me..real boil..

today jus go j8 play arcade the button abit spoy so come moves i cant really do most of the time..so is alright let say i was playing arcade den the button spoy i duno i throw my temper of why cant do it..i keep doing it last time..sth like tat..ya isit sth wrong with me..or isit becos tat thing keep in my mind nw going in rage..

den think nw i more or less fine i duno when will happen again..busy with magic..hahax..kkies..
and jay chou album delay till 15th Oct 08..wha lou..hahax..kkies....

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About me is out bt still constructing..

2008-10-01T22:46:00.000-07:00

2nd October 08 le. wow..tats fast.. jus like tat 7 more days den can gt my album le..den after tat school re-open le..hahax..days jus past so fast..nvm..and i suddenly so crazy abt magic..all i do at home is practice magic learn more and more and practing my paino too..hahax..den i gt nw 3rd deck of playing cards le..THE PINK REVERSE DECK.the next deck i will b habing is THE BLACK GHOST DECK..sound cool rite..

nw i am at home looking at magic thing also..hahax.den going bath den go douby gaut with my mum and bro..okkies..hahax..i later will write also..when i am bk..okkies..see u later..

lolx.bk le..omg man my bro jus nw say want gt the ghost deck den nw he tell me he want black de..asshole seh..cant wake up his mind keep change..den nvm i took very long to decide..den nvm..gt another deck similier to the ghost deck..is the shdow masters deck..sound cool rite it is also really cool..and my mum also bought 4 me the card case wow..so tks my mum..tks mum..hahax..den i was touched seh..sometime i treat her nt really gd den she till dont mind spening the money on me and bro..she jus want me to b gd treat her gd and happy..bt sometime i did..so if i sometime like tat den tell dear nt to like tat or wad ya tis is the time i woke up le..ok so dont say i can like tat u cant..nt fair or wad lar ok..i woke up le..hahax.wad i saw she jus gib me money like tat to buy her pay also nt like my dad like times 6 like tat nor..den my mum gt to take care of herself my bro and me..like entertament and food all my mum pay..haix..sin ku u le mummy i write and see nw feel like want cry also le..dotn wry mummy i will train gd 4 my piano den earn money bring u out or wad..hahax.b famous let u see tat i can even i in ite or nt i still can cos u noe why i gt heart and love and tat is all it needs...wha dont si seh me jkjkjk..understand mar mummy..hahax..okok..

wha bk from woodlance fetch my dear bk home..hahax..den i jus bath out nw msn and writing blog lor..hahax..my dear so gd help me gt the video hahax..cant say..later gt big prob if want noe those people noe me face to face i tell u..hope the video can den send to me..hahax..and btw hor the video nt abt dirty thing hor..if u people are thinking tis way lar..is abt sth bt is clean de..can le..hahax.i nt so tat kind hor..hahax..i angel neh..hahax..kkies...bb

2008-09-28T08:28:00.000-07:00

28th September 08 le..today do nth wake up chiong game clear 2 chractor and unlock 1 chractor..dynesty warrior 6..den after tat go j8 lor.starting dnt feel like go de..den ok lor..den my dad suddenly say 10mins cme dwn he drive us there den eat..my hair so messy den i faster go toilet wash le den dry den still alittle wet den jus go..hahax.

i at j8 le.i go arcade i saw the guy tell me hw to do the iori continue combo..den i jus do nth den i suddenly gt the feel of the timing of the combo den i do abt 18 to 19 hits of the iori combo..wha..do nt onli 1 to 2 time is a few time seh..and i alomst gt the hit BC run hit den go the combo..hahax..cool seh..den rugal i also can keep doing hahax.today duno why hahax..den i want learn chris hahax.

ok den go eat le lor..den come bk home le..watch f1 my favourite drive KIMI wad 3rd den go pitstop den become 5th den he kan jiong den last few laps den drive abit fase den gt acident..hahax..ok alonso won.hahax..and HAM...den another i duno..
den nw tok in msn and hear song nia..want delete the memories cos i do till nt nice and want add the abt me de bt i scard will become like the memories..den mar fan le..i lazy do also lar..hahax.okok..and w8ing 4 12 nw 11.52 nia jay chou album count dwn wad..hahax.i sacrd last day den cant sleep too excited to gt hands-on his new album..hahax..

2008-09-25T08:20:00.000-07:00

25th September 08 le.wha seh..count dwn left 14 days going 13 day soon le..going hit 12..hahax..wowow..hahax..cant w8 to gt hands on..ok today go arcade den bring dear go hom nia..den go j8 bu ysth eat cos my stomach pain scard gastric..

erm upcoming update..abt me in tis new template is coming out..okok..so w8 4 it..okok..

den eat le go home in bus saw my bro den go home like tat nia lor..duno why today i like so tired afternoon gt sleep abit lor..i duno wad happen..den i say to my baobei say we rest den go eat den later gt mood to tok wont so tired like tat..

nw jus keep listening to my new song..fragrence rice..using com and eating ice cream nia..

2008-09-23T22:33:00.000-07:00

NEW UPDATE!!!!

Memories list is out,still working on it..

NEWS!!!
Jay chou new album(Capricon) is out on 9th Oct tat is what i found in the net.(picture bottem)

24th September 08 le..today didnt really sleep well neh..keep think tat gt people keep msging me..den i wake up den i didnt msg or reply anyone i am jus dreaming or anyhw think..hahax..okokok..today gt piano seh..i heavent really practice neh..okok i go bath den go practice le ok..my shampoo no more le..heng i gt another shampoo to use..hahax.

nw erm more of less ok le jus onli the last line i nw practice den later put all together den ok le..den my first kiss the score i duno hw to add chords in it neh..hahax..nvm..

nw watching pool wow dear gt reply me 1 msg seh..hahax.i like gt nth to say tok those you de mei de..hahax..okok..

heng arh..i put in new jay chou new album if nt i mus write alot in here.hahaax.lolx..mus fast write den go bk piano le..den go le..

nw i trying to put pictures in the song in my ipod and the album cover different last time can neh nw i cant le duno why also abit difficult to use also cos nw i using new version de..

ok lar..i go practice nw..den later i cme bk den continue write ok..i later write finish le will upload the pictures ok..

bk from my piano..today lesson ok lar..hahax..nvm tis is nt i want to tell u people..i finally went the pre-order the jay chou 2008 new album capricon and gt his rubic cube..hahax..
den after tat go find dear peii her den go home le..den i think i saw my friend seh..bt nv go tok to her cos scard nt her bt really look alike lor..den sms her or call also nv ans..den 4gt about it le..den i feel bad cos i duno the time den let my dear go home late hai dao her mum like angry gib her black face and her mum is 1 kind the lar..dont want explain cos is personal..

den nw i at home continue the rest den go sleep le.okk..

2008-09-21T04:12:00.000-07:00

21th September 08..today wha lou dont really hab gd sleep..my dad lar..siao 1 keep cme bk home nth to do ask me wake up no nth..say wad i sleep so late all these..lolx..alot of time le lor..den i was very tired want sleep..he jus keep wake me up..crazy de..den i gib him my temper swipe his hand away..den he duno say wad sleep so late den wake up late tis kind of life..really crazy rite..people sick sleep also gt wrong lolx..and nt the first time le lor..is every time he like tis de..den my mum come nv wake me up lar bt also gt say i sleep late wake up late lor..den nvm..

den awhile more i woke up le..go wash up all these lor..den i feel like sth wrong with me neh..duno wad is it also..feeling tired also.my back so suan also...den i go eat den take my medicine..duno why today i keep go toilet like stomach nt gd..

den after tat the medication like gt effect today..i feel tired lor..den i was watching movie for abit 35mins den i cant take it le..i go off the tv den go my room on air con and really sleep..den duno hw long i sleep den my off my air con and ask me wake up i think i angry until 4gt abt it le..hahax..den dear also go duno where den cant peii me or msg me lor..

den my parent go out le..den awhile my hp ring guess wad is my dear who msg me..when i gt the feel tat she going msg me really happen seh..she say she at where and nw buy food so can msg me so i call her and tok lor..i abit angry lar..bt she explain and to me all these den i sin luan so nt angry le..hahax..she was cute also..hahax..cutey..

den practice piano cos so long nv practice le..den tok to my ah ma say tomo going nw her hse..den w8 4 my parent bk to eat lor nw eating and continue to watch the movie lor..and w8ing 4 my dear msg also..

2008-09-19T20:56:00.000-07:00

20th September 08 le..wha..tis whole week is the best say of my live seh..yeah man..tat wad i mean..hw i wish everyday was like tat or can b better..sry r if i write like nt clear or wad cos i jus woke up from a bad dream..kkies..let me explain wad happen to me why i love tis week..

monday dear and me went shopping seh and the best part is we tok photo seh..hahax..second de..i think tis time is nicer den last time..getting nicer and nicer..hahax..ya..cos no school wad.den walk walk lor..den we also go arcade..walk and play until 4 plus around there den i bring her home..cool rite..

tuesday neh..i think gt school neh..we go school 4 awhile nia..den early go le..cos my teacher cancel one of the lesson den we go bk early lor..den we go novena walk walk..den i bring her home..hahax..like tat nia abit normal on tis day..

wednesday neh..i no piano den no school teacher cancel the whole day so nv school at all..den we go arcade all these walk walk lar..peii each other romantic hor..hahax..abt the same as monday..onli tat kof i think i go 18 19 hits combo infront of her..den we go eat lar..all these den same bring her home..

thursday neh..think we went to arcade again..den i thought 12 plus must leave den she say 2 extra 2 hrs.hahahax..den we go walk walk awhile den think we also go eat den i bring her home..hahax..

friday neh..think i go play basketball with friends..she want go bt cant..den nvm lor..we peii each other..we also gt go until bugis seh..den see shirt..den i go play basketball..den i feel bad she cant go den i go play basketball..she will feel sad de lor..den i told her really ok mar if i go..den she say ok all these den i more fang sin go le..she ask me dont play until hurt myself seh..hahax..den i play le..i faster rush bk home den bath eat eat medicine change and deciding wad to wear lor..den we meet den walk awhile den we go home le..den go bk home alone..haix..hahax..

den like tat lor..gd hor..hahax..hw i wish every day like like will b gd le..bt cant haix..hahax..

nw i watching mtv see gt wad nice song hear..and writing practice piano and deciding wad song to perform today cos today i gt piano performace today..den going bbq later..hahax..my friend birthday celebration..okok..and waiting 4my mum bk to buy my food..think tat all i later bk le den warite..

2008-09-16T02:09:00.000-07:00

16th September 08

what i hab done.

A bullet in my heart..Who understand!!!!

2008-09-11T06:19:00.000-07:00

11th September 2008 le..nw finally my com ok le..sry long time nv write my com crash wad..hehe sry..hahax..nw i gt less fan nao nw i think i am sick lor..keep cough..hahax..den nw my msn and ebuddy like cant neh..cant b wad i nv 4gt my password..nvm tomo try again ok see hw..hahax..nw going sleep le..today jus go school den go out with dear dear den go home fast to do my com my dad come bk from work and help me..he nv say anything seh..hahahx..den ok le..he go fetch bro den come bk le..buy food also..sia lar..today gt 1 friend say who the girl with me so sin fu hahax..nvm...nw waiting 4 my dear call me den tok..okok..i take medicince le.any1 wry 4 me seeing tis i eat medi le..hehe..den my laptop den go check up le..less less fan hahax..okok dear call me le she w8ing 4 me nw..gtg bb..happness level nv write..

2008-09-01T20:25:00.000-07:00

2nd of September 2008 le..haix..so sian at home the computer cant use den nw using the 1 in school de..aiyo..also duno wad wrng with me also..i and her gt prob again..haix..duno lar..jus she tok like very ah lian those kind and she say play play onli..sit untl like tat also..haix..den i just say her she tok bk like so loud seh..like I WHERE GT TOK LOUD..haix..like tat gtg le..

2008-08-29T21:51:00.000-07:00

30th August 08.. wha ytd midnight abt 2am, i feel so sick seh..my throat pain want vomit and heart pain..really dame sin ku lor..i keep sweating and sweating..i feel so bad until i want go see doctor at 2am..den gt change le want go out of the door den nv le go feel better den i go drink hot water den my mum cook noodle 4 me..den i go bk sleep le..when i lye dwn awhile den cme bk again bt nt jia lart de..jus alittle onli..and i keep burb lor..alot of gas..den my dear gt peii me den tok to me all these lor..and i go sleep le..gt 1 time i feel sad lor..i feel unwell den i call her she nv ans my call den i though she sleep le nv care 4 me..den her batt flat also..den she reply me saying she at toilet nw charging her phone..nv tell me u go toilet or wad make me feel even bad 4 nth..

and my computer gt serious virus seh..and spyware..den nw i using save mood to use..scard the virus gt worst so i write le nid off the com le..ok lar..if can i later den continue write..

2008-08-24T06:37:00.000-07:00

24th August 08 le..today haix...nth much lar..jus wake up den rain rain rain..den want go cut hair de den duno want go mar..in the end nv go cos still raining heavily..den at home play ps3 and watch tv play computer lor..so lonely..no1 tok to me wad den do all these lar..nvm..and waiting 4 8 oclock 4 the Olympic closing..cos my dad say gt jay chou den w8 until 8 den see lor..den when around 8 like tat..haix..i and my bro almost fight again..haix..den my dad cme so fast den guess wad same thing first thing gib me the look den tok abit angry..i fuck care i tok bk sia..den i tell him sth den he nv say anything den go and say my bro..nb i keep nt wrong i kana scold...my bro keep tok like tat and kpo arh..he so guai lan den still can cry fucker really..nb if i noe the guy who rob him i sould ask him wack mre and harder..haix..den nvm i was toking to her also..haix..starting she tok to me like abit angry say aiya i think u go put dwn first lar..den say she scard cos i angry den in the end she angry and tok to me like tat..she say she tok to me very normal..haix..NO lor..scard i treat her cold or wad she treat me like tat think 1 day i will mar lar..haix..haix..the whole day she leave me alone den still say so miss me can feel lor..jus send me msg say nia..haix..nvm..den she still say me..haix..my parent like tat my bro like tat say me she still also fan and say me i very sad nw lar..very poor thing de neh me..nvm lar..anyway get use to it le..i feel weird also..i very fan and stress lar..sad 2..no 1 noe is ok..jus let people say me lor..haix..den nw watching the channel 5 thing bt duno jay chou out le mar..i duno..tat all lar..dnt feel like write more le..bb..

2008-08-21T07:55:00.000-07:00

21th August 08..sry long time nv write le..lazy to write arh..hahax..i nt write book de leh..okok...today jus write..hahax..hao lar..enough of the fei hua le..nw late le leh..i want sleep le yeahhh!!!! tomo no school seh..den can peii dear dear lo..today actually morning nt really happy de duno why my mood these few days sot le..den after tat finish school tat time i and laopo go novena awhile den go hme..when i go home..want watch show de bt i nid to go orchard douby gaut and jurong..so far these places..den faster bath den get ready den go le..though of going bishan play arcade den go de..bt think like no time den nv go le..i go orchard see magazine..den sun bian take my book which i order de..wha tis time issue gt ff13 verses cool seh..bt 2 pic nia..hahax.graphic gd..and ff13 also graphic dame gd..cant w8 to gt my hand on it..

after buying i went to douby gaut den magic shop find lor..walk until my leg and backside suan and pain seh..nw also pain especially my bk..den finally found the shop at 3rd floor lolx..find the stairs very difficult de lor..den nvm finally i found le..wha gt so many kind lor..and seel quite cheap seh..ghost deck at novena chiong price at 20 seh..there 10 nia..hahx.half the price..hahax..den i see le dont feel like buy le..i go buy vintage deck more nice bt mre ex lar..15..

den i go bk plaza sing to yamaha shop play piano lolx.thought can bar mei in the end really gt 1 meii meii cme see..lolx.small girl and her mum lar..hahax.no young girl chio de..hahax.my dear read tis later tomo hammer me hahax..

den buy le go find laopo le lor..bt at tis time my bk and leg all so tired seh..

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den go peii her go supper market buy thing den take bus home le..den i take mrt bk saw a guy hit a girl seh..think his gf bar..another asshole fucker..haix..people bad can b together keep together me neh..nv hit cant b together wad is tis shit..nt fair..nt fair..den go home le..use come at all drinking drinks and finding new blog skins..den when waiting 4 bus i keep see like the guy i dont like de lor..make me head pain and anger..bt nv blow hahax.i nt bomb..

HAPPYNESS RATE 1 2 -2.5- 3 4 5 (morning to jus after school)
HAPPYNESS RATE 1 2 3 -3.5- 4 5 (after school to night)

2008-08-05T18:41:00.000-07:00

6th Auguest 08 le..sry long time MIA..hahax..gt some problem with my emotion arh..no mood seh..no mood here no mood there..nw in school write nia..haix..bk home le bk from piano dont want write le..i really feel sth is wrong with me..when i think if it i will feel mad..i nw at home want go mad le..arghh...i habing a bad headache..haix..

2008-07-30T20:04:00.000-07:00

31th july 08 le..tomo 1st august le..going national day le..haix..tis year i think tis year the national celebration i nv go with my ai ai or anyone go see fireworkd..i dont think so..ok lar..today the lesson computer de cool sia..hahax..sian..hao lar..jus write abit first..today lesson start abit late den end abit late bar..den dont think can peii each other le..haix..hai hao lar..jus sometimes feel very sian..and nw i feel still sda inside my heart i look ok ya i look ok bt very very deep inside my heart still really really hurts..bt normal i am ok..hahax..sometime emo jus feel sad lor..wha tis time in class cool lor..dare to say ILY seh..hahax..more man..hahahx.jkjk..ok i go do work le lar..bb

from here dont feel like write le..

2008-07-30T04:08:00.001-07:00

30th july 08..no mood to write..sad and depress..tks.bb

2008-07-28T19:15:00.000-07:00

29th july 08 le..today hahax.kana blurr thought class start at 1 den go out seh..hahax..lucky friends call us..den we faster rush bk..den late 4 1 hrs..fuck lor..my group or wad i duno wad to do den solo lor..sian de lor..den tomo mus pass up le..dame it lar..all people..dame pek cek de lor.. arghh!! arghh!!...DAME CURSE IT.....and the computer also very slow de lor..can w8 until alomst die..cant w8 anymore le..keep serach and search keep cant find also lor..den i bring sd card also here cant read den duno hw lar..siao de..den later going play kof lor..fucking dame stress fan pek cek lar..aiya later den write..4gt it..i go destress play game...hab enough..

bk home le..very dissapointed and sad..nw crying very sad..control very long le..den at home cant take it..nw head very pain and giddy..no mood to write..

2008-07-28T03:41:00.000-07:00

28th july 08 le..today wake up 5.45 wha den go play com hahax.early no 1 mar..so wont people ks..hahax..nvm..den after tat go bath lor..den go early meet dear early and go eat mac..den after we eat den take bus go school lor..hahax..

when reach school le..go p.e today erm..today nth much to feel sad or wad lar..jus my own emo start nia..everyday also hab de lar..den whole day gd i nv feel angry jealous we today very fine..jus tat we go out or wad nid like seng send mi mi de..i also dont understand people..

den today school end quite early..den i help laopo sth and pass her sth..(private)..den after tat i ask her w8 at my hse dwnstairs den go bath..den my mum sick at hme i scard de seh..heng arh..den i bath dame fast den faster go dwnstair le dont want let her w8 so long...den we go amk go do things den after tat i was quite happy den go play pool onli gt 9 feet so cant waste time more ex ok..den go 7-11 buy my favourite chips den go hme..and i want study quite gd den can help dear dear den she wont so many things fan..see i keep gt think abt her..she last time nt really lar..bt nw neh getting better and better can b better de..try jia you jia you..i will b there 4 u de okkies..i say there and i will b really there 4 u...den go hme le lor..den do nth..den piano..den after tat nw doing project with dear also...exchange and helping each other tis feel is gd helping each other jus feel so sin fu and man..hahax..i everything also think i man de lar..

den nw busy doing project and i learn a new part in piano tis part difficult lor..den still trying bt nw gt project..bt the new part gt improve by abit lar..hahax.okkies.bussy bb nite..

HAPPYNESS LEVEL 1 2 3 -4- 5 (good)

2008-07-27T04:55:00.000-07:00

27th july 08 le..going august le so fast..haix..today wake up jus use com lor..den go bath...den want go out de bt i want do hair dne go out..bt i lazy hahax..den in the end nv go le..den keep play com lor..and do my homework..do finish le..bt the project very difficult to do cant google search dao neh..den laopo say go rest den she rest 4 so long le..nv my mind keep anyhw think things...think tat she lie to me she go rest bt nv go out with him..arghh...so uncomfortable..den sometime nv think abt tat..jus resting..den very scard..haix...den tomo going schl early..haix..want drink neh..i duno why want drink..so weird..arghh!!! haix..den jus nw i fried things keep burn dao my hand..nvm..nw parent jus cme bk jus eat finish..den nw duno wad to do nw..w8 4 laopo reply or go sleep den sms her around 5.40 wake up..den prepare fast..i also duno..okokies..

HAPPYNESS RATE 1 2 -3- 4 5 (duno)

2008-07-25T02:21:00.000-07:00

25th july 08 le..haix..today morning until school finish very fun bt after school nt fun and gd le..haix..class so gd lor..when going home tat time our group heavent do finish she gt w8 4 me tat is gd..den after tat i ask her want go out walk walk together den go take mrt go ahma house she dont want..haix..den nvm..den we went to a place to sit..i go buy drinks..den suddenly i feel very weird..den i go walk walk dne go the bridge there and sit and think..den laopo msg some msg to me..den she say cme nw we go boon keng there walk..den my friend hear song dne i go change lor..den duno wad happen den she so angry lor..wha lou wad fuck is tis he scold me she nt angry i jus say bk she angry until like tis wad is tis tell me..fuck..arghh..den suddenly she jus say go den like tat..den duno wad wrong also den i ask her go where she tell me rudely there lar...den i go with her..den she tell me why so angry den i say sry she also like tis..dont want b happy all these..den no choice lor..haix.sad u noe..den i keep try and try in the end haix..hai hao lor..den she bring me go a place tok den i say where she say dont ask where she bring me..jus under the block lar..den we tok abt jus nw de lor..den she like scold me den i cry le..haix..cry baby den me still say i want protect her..i nt man le lar..haix..i want b man bt if i angry abit nia..she will jus walk away all these lor..den she angry i hab to go hong her or wad lor even when i angry or other feelings..some times also nv help lor..haix..the guy scold me she nv angry or say bk i say him den she say mus say so many times 4 wad..so care 4 him 4 wad..den cos of him scold me..gd....nvm i dont blame her is my fault..i nv scold den wont like tat le..haix..anyway i getting use to people bully me le..den i bring her go harbourfront den she go take bus go ahma hse le..den gt saiyang me..den i go hme le..

nw at home watch yu le bai fen bai...den fried things eat..den after tat going meet dear lor..den bring her home..ya..nw nth to do watch movie or tv lor..den after tat bath..and get ready to go...

haix..life is so difficult 4 me..so poor things..haix..think die better bar..

NEW UPDATES!!!! gt happiness test..a few days already hab le bt nv anounce..

HAPPYNESS LEVEL 1 2 3 -4- 5 (from morning to after school)
HAPPYNESS LEVEL -1 , 2- 3 4 5 (from after school onward)

2008-07-24T03:59:00.000-07:00

24th july 08 le..today hor..a happy day..hahax..jus gt 0.1% nt really happy bt 4gt le wad happen..today actually want write quite alot de bt my mum and bro here very hard to write sure kpo de..today in class gd lor..den after school we go out together den we go eat pizza hut again..i can tell u today if people follow us sure dame bloody jealous cos too loving le..den i bring her go t ake bus den go home le..she go ah ma hse..hahax..den okok lar..den go home play maple lor nth to do..and find my o2mania song..

at home fried sth eat eat until want vomit le nw stomach pain..hahax..den ok le lor...den later mayb go piano den tok to dear den sleep le..

nw nite le..haix..jus nw i cook food until stomach pain and want vomit..den tomo sure sian de..i can feel..bt laopo promise me when i sad stay cool and nice tok to me..make me feel better..jus nw tok until cry seh..cos she tell me tomo cant go with me..den she nid go her ahma hse lor..den cant with me..tis wad she say den i start to cry..wad u expect me to do cut myself into half meh..(in a pek cek tone abit lar..)den awhile my heart also pain and still want vomit..den awhile i go drink water also the same..den later no vomit le..and stomach pain..3 days le..i rub my eye until zong...mayb tired bar..also duno..haix..mayb i cant sleep well lor..ok bar..think she cant tok to me le bar..on9 bt nv tok..i tired le..w8 awhile if nt go sleep le..

HAPPYNESS LEVEL 1 2 3 -4- 5 (morning until afternoon)
HAPPYNESS LEVEL 1 2 -3- 4 5 (nite)

2008-07-22T18:22:00.000-07:00

23rd july08..today feel hai hao lar..jus a little onli..ya lor..same she still tired..ya..erm..ya..want say sth bt here very difficult write neh..tok the best bar..hahahax..abit tired nia..like nth much to write today jus onli the piano lesson and after onli bar..ya..erm..ya really nth neh i jus in school nw habing computer lesson den can use com cos nw break mar..den write some lor..kkies..nth to write le..i want watch batman seh.hahax..tis saturday watching with my family..hahax..okkies..
laopo stay happy hao mar..i did said jus nw like tat thursday and friday..okkies..dont liek see u like sian sian like tat..hao mar..dont like neh..wha seh she gib me note today seh..say i mus jia you on my piano seh..gan tong..hahax..

ya okkies..nw i another computer lab to write..hahax..jus nw is another de..i jus bk from eating hahxa..cant eat so much fried stuff seh..cos heart pain den cant eat so much fried stuff alot of people say cant eat so much...today our class start our first fix own com seh..hahax..cant really w8 le..nw start le..okkies..nw takting computer so heavey lor..hahax..cut dao..abit nia...

bk from school today go united square piano in the end i duno today gt no piano..den i w8 until so long..den in the end my teacher call me say today no lesson..den i go bk home lor..den haix..duno wad wrong with her..so weird lor..haix..i want everyday very happily..i really want it ok..so badly..i see u like tis i really gt no 1 to tok to..onli u den u like tat hw tell u..nw i feel sabit uncomfortable..nw drink asahi..haix.later drunk..hahax...haix..i feel like go find people ok tat really can help..i really sometimes very scard sad and wry..tis time i really did over den last time..if all the feeling add all together wad will happen chaos..den i feel like go couserlling seh no 1 tok to..jus some time will like tat nia..bt i jus nt some1 to b there 4 me always..taking care of me all these..i drink the whole can nth happen seh..sian..i jus eat potato chip den drop den i bend dwn and pick up den i knock my head on the table sehh..den on the spot like giddy le think the drink really going make me drunk le..bt nth lor.i jus feel like ending my life..want i hab done wrong in life to deserve tis..i am trying to b a gd pesron okk even better ok..today my classmate also gt same senerio as me bt his so fucking simple lor..den i dont think he is a gd person lor..bad people keep gt gd things le..den i tis gd people keep gt bad shit..haix..jus really feel like deing den solve all dame thing le..or i can go hospital den hab bad injury den mayb people really will start to treasure me and wad i am able to do..kk i go bath first....jus nw eating tat time want write sth nw 4gt le..nvm..

ya..nw hope really nth happen ya dont feel like write le..tat all..okok..later eat crab lolx..cant eat so much den duno will full mar..

ouchh!! duno wad happen to me today..nw i feeling near the stomach area pain..den my bk and arm also pain duno why..den my mum say think i gt flu le..lolx..duno also lar..haix..

HAPPINESS LEVEL:1/-2-/3/4/5

2008-07-21T18:32:00.000-07:00

22th july 08 le..sry ytd nv write hor..hahax..erm..no reason to it hahax.jus nv write..and cos of piano also lar..hahax..erm..ytd paino hai hao lor.starting to gettign use all the note le hahax..cos fun lor if u noe hqw play yr favourite songs.hahax..nw 22th july so fast..nw i at school write..hahax..cos nw computer lesson so gt the feel to write lor..hahax.lesson heavent start so many people late..hahax..i nv late lolx..
today the day is quite gd bar..hope maintain better and everyday also better and better..wha assignment today start seh..hahax..sian..heng today abit redy nw doing research..hahax..erm today the day hai hao lar..i jus dont like moday and wednesday abit bar..wha my piano work like nv practice lor..later go home mus practice chiong le..later continue teacher teaching nw..haix..i no group seh..dont ask why..haix..den alone do lor..or gt 1 more of my friend..haix..sian de lor..den i do myself also can..think i solo bar.ytd i sleep quite late hor..den duno why today in lesson quite awake seh..bt she nt awake..hahax..nw hai hao le lar..duno later den i will start sleepy..hahax....brb...

bk le..hahax.jus bk from break..teacher nw let us do the project wha lan leh..i dotn liek my tis new group seh i want solo..ya..wei dont tired sian sian like tat neh..u like tat i dont really like..cos u will treat me diff cos u are tired..hahax...the chewing gum she gave me like rock seh..hahax.harder and harder..like rock.hahax..i keep dream of i drop my tooth seh..alot alot of times le lor..is like mayb 40 over times or mayb even more..

i search in the net wha lou wei..like rubbish i duno hw research haahx..dont hab groyp is like tat.the air con here pro..hahax..cold sia..hahax..later become ice age 5..hahax..wha the project do until want pek cek le lar..NB....dame it..today end at 12 seh..den i go lunch le..haix..feeling weird neh..dun owad is it also..haix..think last time i take the test abt i nid conserlling mar and the result they gib think real le bar..haix..wad wrong with me..and i think my paino suddenly get so firece like tat.hahax.i can feel it is liek i suddenly dare try touch more of the secret song in the book..and can place seh..hahax..starting le bar..yeah!! really enjoying it..

i want go ocean butterfly coruse seh..den go thaiwan den start..bt is a difficult decision cos my friends all here her here and my family my ah ma aiya all people in here lar..den suddenly jus like tat go den go meh..nid time to settle dwn de wad..going 12 le..hahax..nw 11.28 le..sharp..really dame sian de lor..

erm..ya nw bk home le..jus nw so sry was so angry with laopo angry until hit the railing abt 10 times hard de..the whole thing vibrate..hahax..haix..den call her den tok to her abit louder nia..so sry..den we both nt happy like tat lor..sry okkkies..my fault my day today also angry den u also nv do yr part..we both gt fault..okok..den 4gt le lar..already pass le..nw ok le lor..jus tat jus nw wad she say shoot dao me deep..say:her secondary school life better den ite..wad abt me neh..shoul db the other way round wad..sec school nt gd ite better alot..den jus tat i did so much secrifice den sec school better..den feeling uncomfortable jus nw wad i did..nw go drink beer i think..jap de...den nid piano le..

den i go hme search the ocean butterfly thing..hahax..den nw w8ing the guy call me and see wad is going on..hahax..i want go neh bt will miss my friends all these de...

msg to laopo:i am sry jus nw..ok mar..go rest okkkies..i practice piano..den go hme will read my blog rite..den u will see..sry..haix..like no time finish tis 2 song..mus play well some more neh..hope u like the pudding i gab to u..hahax..dont throw arh..hahax..from me de neh..dear i go i ser bu der neh..miss all people here espically u my beloved dear..kar mar toi..hahax..kar mar toi tai..noe wa di toking rite..hahax..special language..kkies..i hab a hrad decision neh..hw..tok with me abt tis neh..

2008-07-20T04:51:00.000-07:00

20th july 08 le..sry ytd nv write busy with piano and tired..nw also tired..so sian today..today jus go my friend house use com cos my hse the maple cant play go his hse try..hahax..gt horntail necklace le..hahax..den his com the also very lag..den in the end we go amk eat sumo hse..den want go play pool de bt in the end 2 many people so nv play...den after eat we go arcade pla awhile dne go amk hub walk 1 round den go hme le..den so tired lor..haix..abit angry..u noe why cos MY LAOPO nv sms me seh..is like onli 3 sms nia lor..haix..arghh!!!! wad she doing until cant even reply me..wad wrong again..arghh..dont keep like tat lar..will gt heart attack de..den when i at hme want login to the com cos gt password..den i keep type cant login i try and try until hang den pek cek..den cos i on the caps lock..hahax...lolx..pek cek 4 nth..haix..nw do nth later going bath..den rest den mayb go sleep le or wad bar..ok.tat all..

2008-07-18T08:29:00.000-07:00

18th july 08..today go school lor..i am starting enjoy my life..wow..jus wow..hahax..we today happily go school together we happily in school together..hahax..all these mus b enjoyed.hahax.and yarmarteh..hahax.jkjkjk de hor..den after school erm jus very little dont like..we take bus she say i though u going home..gib me the feel like want me go like tat.nvm..den ok lar..we tok den promise nt night meet den ok le..den peei her go take mrt..den i go buy spinelli jus nice my friend call me..hahax.den lucky can tok..nt lonely..

den go hme le..do nth lor..bath le..den maple gt horn tail den try kill gt kill 1 lar..bt keep dc lag all these..den i watch tv and movie lor..den after tat 7 plus le..den change den go meet laopo bring her home..miss each other wad..hahax..den her nick change le feel very uneasy..nt gt use bar..after bring her take mrt le i go home le lor..

den nw toking to her in msn..den u off9 first duno do wad..den later call me..ok lor..den i hab found many ans to my wry question and nw the onli most difficult 1 to b solve and i will do it..i nw abit tired and blurr blurr de so dont really write alot more..

2008-07-17T02:45:00.000-07:00

17th july 08 le..today go school together den after tat after school go novena eat..den after tat go home le..den nw at home lor..nt really meng lar..gt people peii me tok so wont le..and sth make me really angry..angry until want explode le..i also duno why will so angry..nw ok le..dont want write..like tat nia lor..i siang tong le..tat all..and bring laopo go eat pizza hut so much better den the asshole fucker..

den laopo peii me seh..sms with me until i go home all these is auto de lor..so cool...hahax..no more wry le jus onli 1 last ting to get bk my real smile..hahax..den nxt level i duno le..should b no bar even hab is little de lar..den dear jus change all these all of a sudden shock me seh..last time she keep say try best le..today like nv try at all lor jus so normal like tat de..wow..dear tell u sth keep it up okkies..den will b my turn le..hahax..i already nt angry le habing fun with my piano..hahax..

den my laopo go shopping seh buy new shampoo shar gua de 1 shampoo think until so long..hahax..den nw she bk le lor she also eat le live very happily..jus onli tat last BLOODY thing den i can wow le..and u will noe wa dis daryl in true happy form..jus enjoy the ride..and remember tis daryl is a really nice guy..treasure it it it..hahax..den going sleep le lor..nid wake up early..hahax..u noe..hahax..nite..laopo and everyone..

2008-07-16T03:10:00.000-07:00

16th july 08 le..today is another very sad day 4 me..HAIX..today same thing lor..sian sian and sad sad de..today so school alone cos she say she will b late den we meet at school erm i dont so lor..i jus think tat sth wrong den dont want meet me go school together..like dont want see me like tat..den at school le..haix..is like so different..is jus like the first time we see each other nv tok nv care all these..haix..she like nv show any care 4 me at all..bt in her heart i duno..den i tok to her on phone say why like tat wad happen wad she tired abt..she say tired my my attitude..ya..i also think so..cos aiya too luv u le wad..and scard u gt feel with other guy and i also want care and noe more abt u mar..wad u doing who u smsing all these..couple where gt hide things de..den when lesson time teacher ask us form our group of 4..den i beside her nia..den also nv count me in..den put her friend in..den i was jus like so...er....duno wad happen den like tat do to me.den later i ask her..den she say cos teacher say 4 in a group mar..den if gt 5 sure put me in de..aiya..also duno lar..if my tat friend also gt come..sure put him or wad de lor..aiya nvm..den 4 so simple also nv put me in..den nvm..den class end early we go long break den see her like we like tat still cant laugh and smile..den nv even think or care from me from the outside..den i want tok to her den see her like nth happen i cant take it really want tok and cry out..den i sms her she see le nv even reply den continue tok..haix..den i cant take it den go tell her straight and say i want tok to u 4 awhile..den she like want go dont want go i say again..she tell me in a nt really happy tone WAIT!!! i done so many things tis wad i get..nvm den we go to a place and tok..den say here say there..dont want write..keep grab her hand dont want her go den she say she will try b happy bt is jus like force to b happy like tat nt natural..den she want go bk le..den like so hate me..when she angry or wad..i jus keep there hong her even i in any condition..den i abit angry she so angry and gib me black face..jus so nt fair...duno wad wrong..and she dont want me like tat very hurting 4 her de..say i change her until duno who is she le..come on u are nt there yet..dont gib up so fast..den after nt really ok..bt better den let her go she walk so fast on her own everytime like tat de neh..every time with me walk with me den with friends or wad walk on her own i behind walk slow hab to keep catch up their speed she nv turn bk find where is me or am i behind or wad..jus keep walk to her own..haix..jus make me also very sad..den after tok finish to walk bk and take my ipod go to the nearby overhead bridge and jus feel sad and cry starting i was trying to ren saying tat cant cry later they cme find me den pei seh or wad..den i think haix..wont happen de lar..they also wont care 4 me de..den i keep hear song den my emotion and mind keep thinking those sad things den cry and cry and cry very jia lart..den i try stop also cant..cry 4 like abt 20 over mins..den she sms me wher i am..den i go bk..lucky no 1 noe i cry..den the whole day jus sad sad de lor..den when school finish we at bus stop w8 4 bus den she sms me cant follow me go piano le..she nid go hme do sth..haix..den i alone go lor..den i at UQ so lonely lor..den we gt tok lar..as in sms..den i go piano le..paino hai hao still the same song cant..haix..den after tat no mood den go home le...den want go hme and cry..haix..very uncomfortable..i so hungry bt i dont want eat..i eat snaks...den my mum call me eat sian..ok lor..den buy i want hungry to death den i will noe who treasure me..eat le make myself vomit out also can..den when reach hme 6 oclock le cant watch my show..den nw very sad want cry le..i think abt things..sobs..sobs..pls pity me..den i gt a feel tomo dont think we go school together..sth want tell laopo..

:tks 4 treating me as yr hubby and baby..bad things keep happening to us.i noe is very difficult 4 u..i said le we together and find out wad path we mus take to find true happiness bt first u mus end sth first bt i noe u still cant or wad ever...hope u today cant late sleep..sleep well..haix..jus tks u..making me noe hw to treasure luv more and more..if i leave tis world b4 u..pls hab a gd day ok..i dont want u nt happy or wad..i noe u still angry of me..i did my best bt i still cant gt wad i want..jus so pek cek and sad..den tks 4 yr care also..jus hope tat tomo u will end tis all becos of me..bt i dont think will lar..den reason i think or wad i also duno...i very uncomfortable nw jus keep crying nw writeing also cry..very very sad okk..do tat 4 me..4 me..and i keep silenly cry and cry trying nt to let people wry..i try so hard keep all to myself and my tears has been known as sweat.cos when i cry or wad..i will tell them is sweat keeping my sad feelings 4 so long and i gt so little things.....tat all no mood write any more le..later i more worst..den decide commit sudside..

2008-07-15T00:47:00.000-07:00

15th july 08 le..days has been chaging to worst and i want my last time bk..hw hw..tell me..today i jus toking abt me tat all..today nth at all normal student..haix..today we go school take bus den i can feel sth strange cos ytd nite my heart very pain and feeling cold and warm..den i and my mum was toking abt bringing me go see doctor..i nv go cos will ok de..awhile nia..haix..den suddenly something happen den i abit sad and angry den i look outside the window..and my friend sms me say wad i think she is fan or wad..den make me more fan..den i call my tat friend to tok abt wad happen why like tat still scold me..den i already nt well le ytd nw still abit..den my friend like tat den laopo also like tat..haix..den i really very sad pain..den i angry she jus like nv care at all lor..is like no matter wad i cant angry at all..den last time u lie to me i angry bt nt until dont even borther u or hack care u rite..u say i like a baby nid people take care of me which is u..u angry u keep say u cant take care of me 4 long all these..den u ok u say i nid care..pls..i noe wad u went through i also okkies..i want u understand me..u tell me yrs and i tell u mine..tat wad my luv is abt...okkies..den in class jus like nv tok lor..den i go and tok to her same lar..den she still dont really feel gd den she sms me tell me..den at tat time i was completely dwn jus want go bk home al cry i feeling very uncomfortable..den i stood up again..i cant fall if i fall all people around me will fall also i dont want tat...she also nv care at ALL..okk.at all..den after tat i think mus better le..den we can at least tok bt still gt the feel.i very stress sad and lonely okkies..when i can smile pls..i really want last time the us..pls..dont like tat okkies..u say u will try to always there 4 me and care for me and loving me..laopo pls tell me can..wad happen to u..haix..i very uncomfortable nw..den go break tat time she and her friend go out leave me alone nv even sms me at all she wont feel lonely or wad meh..without me like feel diff de..she nv wor..onli i sms her den she will reply..why like tis should b both keep sms to each other wad..she say scard people noe or see and alot of people already suspecting le lor..and her friend onli 1 cant sms me meh..jus nw i was so pek cek i hit the wall twice hard den nw my hand pain le..haix..nvm de lar..small pain nia..den after school i jus walk out of the class lor..she also nv go to take bus to novena there..den same lar i sms her den she reply she say she rushing to her ahma house..den cant peii me go novena den take mrt meh..it is jus dont care me wad..haix..suffer alot seh..jus so sad okkies..u say wad happen with us always gt things happen to us..haix..i dont wish okkies..last time we dont hab de wad..we hao hao de tok okkies..we tok all out at nite okk..haix..i jus cant take it ok..u go settle with him hao mar..dont care i take all responsible..who will do it..onli me okkies..so pls treasure..dont tell me nt scard i leave meh..u noe u scard de okkies. den pls show it out i want feel it..feelings..den after u settle le..i dont think alot of things will happen to us le..i want smile.hao mar....i jus think tat is the reason..i very sad nw i want let it out pls i want go act and sing..i want let everyone feel me...still gt alot more in my heart too much le..i try say as much as possible..i keep treat and always there 4 me she nv okkies..wad is she thinking she wont feel anything de meh..see yr loves one suffering and nv do anything..jus stay there and say sry or wad..haix..pls go settle and tell me more and all abt wad really happen i still dont think the reason is so simple..den we wont hab so so much problem le..really i am serious..hahax..hao mar..laopo i love u heard until mar..i say 1 more time i love u..still remember the picture we take mar..cant 4gt rite..still remember we like so shy and scard ugly..hahax..tat is sin fu..duno when u gt treat me gd, gd until i almost 4gt tat u hab thing to settle..really really..and still remember our first movie we watch and wad happen when watching i cant say here..more people noe my blog le..and the tree we werer toking abt..dont let it fall..so many wounderful memories mus nu li okkies..trust me..and i feel better le..okkies..i love u..u noe why i keep try so hard to change u..
cos i think u are right 4 me jus nt in a good condition..u jus like a diamond..okkies..diamond come from rock rite..den polish den become wonderful beautiful diamond..u the same..u jus nid to b polished..okkies..look up and understand..okkies..romantic road with me will b gd okkies..smile..hahax..okkies..hahax..i do so many things 4 u ms repay me bk arh, hahax..nvm i very gd de can slowly repay de if nt i or kong u arh...hahax..okkies..later den on phone tok and i want ask u if u are reading pls reply me sms or wad..u rush to ahma house wad..and tks laopo sometime with i hab a hard time u will b there to saiyang me...the first time was at the place tat we sit i will always remember tat..u see really so many memories..all very sweet de..haix..hope 4 the better 4 me her and us..hope all tks..i tomo piano le like no mood to piano neh..haix..and tell u sth i dotn believe de want hear neh..dont tell u hmm..hahax.act cute wor..hahax..hao lar hao lar..i say..sad de..
i think i suffer some metal problem..like siao le..cos i was very sad and depress..so i went to the net and check 4 abt 1 hr..den i read wad to do lar..nid couserling mar all these..wad is stress depress all these..nw also still checking..more den 1hr le..den i saw a short test abt see wad is wrong with me or am i suffering from some mental things aiyo sth like tat lar..and i really tick acording den u guess wad...
42 and up point is worst..
20 - 42 is hab nt worst..
0 - 20 is jus habing a little hard time..

i gt 39...see almost reach 42 le and tat is bad..haix..see wad they say after the test..and they say i nid Psychotherapy also nt sure wad is ti abt.hahax..duno weather isit call worst or bad and i noe is getting worst if keep like tis..

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and i keep checking le..starting to get tired suddenly so many people calling me..wad wrong..u noe isit cant be wad...haix..shock wad i hab..can say going to go IMH or die cos stress..and i go google search wad is tat they say like sth to do with mental and mind..haix..i nid treatment mean nt a gd sign..haix..or go couserlling..haix..bt i dont really like tell things abt me to outsider cos tat i show tat i weak cant handle things or bittle,sour pain..bt is getting worst okk..nw later go practice piano den rest le bar..my friend keep calling me..go tell them nicely wad happen today..nt i think yr all fan cos really things happening to me and i keep thinking tat make me concern..DEPRESS...

2008-07-14T03:43:00.000-07:00

14th july 08 le..sry ytd nv write..den today haix..in school keep feel weird weird de..my mind the wire like loss..siao le..i everything also sensertive haix..den i like tat she also she also nv wad haix..when she angry or wad i am alway trying so hard to hong her..den me neh if i like tat abit den she so angry le..haix..i gt more thing to wry more than her okkies..wry abt her lar,sick,sometime sad sad de lar dont tell me,gt eat mar,her parent lar,,her and him lar,me and her lar,,the way she treat me lar,,wry her feeling change 4 me lar,wry she nt enought moeny spent lar..still gt more all these jus one short say all nia never even think..all jus out..den she say she truely love me and care 4 me..i dont think is enough okkies.. pls..dont like tat angry or wad or suddenly no mood all these..okkies..u say u with me will auto happy de bt sometime u dont..den if like tis u sometime nv tok to me ohh gib me angry face..haix..wad i done wrong in life to deserve tis..i dont want anything i jus want laopo to change..haix..very fan and stress neh..she hear tis den dont tok 2 me all these den want me 4gt her all these lar...keep using tis way to hurt me..pls after i sms u all these pls go and think okkies..dont think so much also..alright..ya jus nw i was angry..nw no more le.den after school go walk walk awhile den go home le..when walking things tat i say jus nw happen..haix..haix..dont like tat le lar..i see me like tis den last time things happen again u should noe..i said le u angry nt happy tell me nicely okkies..i wont angry if u tok nicely explain to me..dont use all these way okkies..dont 4gt who i am..i can help u de ok..no nid other people help..dame okkies..heard tat i dont like...jus nw u keep say sry like nt happy like tat..okkies..nw i alright le..jus wry tat..u thing happen again..haix..she say she go do her things hope so bar..jus after tat she still can change her nick and chage pic..haix..duno real mar..nvm trust her..hahax..den jus hope things will b ok..haix..god pls save us and me..yu le bai fen bai also nv watch..hahax..wha still gt piano and want study hw gt time and i so tired nw..haix..so fast 7 oclock le..wow..so hungry heavent eat..w8 4 mum cme bk den eat..haix..okkies..think tat all..and i think why laopo like tat le mayb she read my blog bar..the one i write the most de..haix..can b..she alway read my blog..think so bar..cos around 2 day ago..i write de den she cant see..nw i feeling very uncomfortable..wry thing bad will happen..and laopo pls..dnt keep things dont want tell me den go find our classmate or friends 4 help..jus so wad.i duno hw explain..haix..okkies..haix. and her pm write tired already tired of wad.dont keep tink bad things lar..i think u tired of me keep like u angry keep ask u dont angry..isit..if nt den wad..dont make me anyhw think....dont want write le jus hoping 4 the best..trying real hard..jia you u and me..

2008-07-12T08:18:00.000-07:00

12th july08..today wake up around 10 plis around there lar..den very tired lor..head giddy de..den heard tat new yu gi oh booster out le my bro call me wad..den stomach pain keep go toilet.den i faster go bath den go novena meet them le..den wha so difficult to choose seh..onli gt 2 normal foil nia..den my mum so gd bring us go eat jack place i eat escargo duno hw spell..i also eat oyster..hahx.raw de..hahax..try try lor..hahax..den after tat i suddenly feel so tired want vomit giddy and stomach feel like empty de..and i dream abt i and luo zhi xiang toking until very funny and weird..hahax..den we go hme and rest a while..den around 5 plus get ready to go j8 to watch movie.."HellBoy"..the movie erm hai hao lar..abit boring lor..the end and middle part so so onli..think the first 1 was nicer..hahax..i want watch the mummy de..jet li acting neh..den very tired lor..very giddy..den sms laopo tell her..den i and mum go buy sth to eat scard at nite hungry..so i buy japanese ham and cheese balls..den go hme le..den nw at home do nth lor.nw jus put down the phone toking to my friend..later toking to laopo..den sleep le bar..very tired and feeling weak..u people noe tat my com suddenly ok le rite..can go friendster all these le..tks 4 all those keep everyday reading my blog trying to understand me everyday wad happen to me..tks..4 surporting..and want say sth den suddenly 4gt le..keep like tat de..sian my laopo noe 1 guy the friend very very very yiao hao the friends..haix..jealous le lar..still from young play and noe until nw de neh...i keep ask her..den she like haix like tat going ask her why later..sian..haix..

2008-07-11T08:59:00.000-07:00

11th july le..today go school alone hai hao lar..den in class tat time she at class le..hahax..den when i put my bag den go out of the class..den laopo also go out wor..hahax..starting i duno den i saw her like cough den turn bk she auto peii me go dwn buy thing seh..den i ask her why cme out first she say throw thing..den she say no lar..peii me wad..hahax.i was so happy and shock tat time..wow..receive muaks seh..hahax..den after tat we go eat in canteen den she say she go out with her mum den nvm lor..was dissapointed abt it..cos every friday i dnt like de cant see laopo also..den in the end she was toking to our group of friend..den duno where she is taking..den after tat aiyo i was abit peace den i alone go take bus..was looking at the sky wounder why god treat me tis way.den was sad also want cry le..den suddenly some1 from my bk tab me den i saw who u noe her..she tell me wad heppen i say u later go le i will b very lonely de..den we go novena walk awhile den when the time she going take mrt go home..den after tat i meeting my friend at woodlance around there..den she like gt thing keeping from me..i go take mrt with her..den she keep want me go home like she going se someone cant let me noe or see..haix..why cant she say really go home dotn believe u can come with me to prove it..haix..den the mrt stop at amk den suddenly she say she going find her couison suddenly change den i didnt ask so much den i ask some question abt him den she like walk her own sth like tat..she say dont like me keep asking her same question or wad..like is it real all these..like nv trust her den ok lor..i trust bt she gib me the feel sth nt right like tat.den i want follow her bt i nv i also duno why mayb cos trust her and too sad to move a muscle..i record my feeling in my phone i noe phone wont reply me bt i say it out..alittle alittle beter nia..i saw yu le bai fen bai luo zhi xiang the concert her mum sick den he cry den her mum ok den appear at his concert he was so glad tat he was ok..his mum in hospital..den so sad he no dad..den gt alot of sad sad the video..see le can touched seh..den i think of alot of sad things..kepp think cant think den head very pain..and laopo nv sms me from i leave unitl nw wad happen why god gib me tis kind of love live..nt fair.cos luo zhi xiang said sth i 4gt le tat make me keep think..i think is like ooohh..is nt he say aiyo duno lar..is his mum bar..say those she sick cant cme to his concert his dad also no chance to see his first concert..and he say why everytime he gt concert sth bad will happen..tat make me think alot bar..den write it out here long hor..hahax..i aldo duno wad happen to her i am very sacard nw..haix..god dont like tis can is very unfair..i am doing sth so call good okkies..and july 11th july the bai fen bai nice..okkies..i go fetch bro den come bk rest..and i gt the computer pass le..duno when he change again..hahax..okkies....sry 4 telling u people tis cos i am really lonely scard all these..duno who can trust so i hab to let it out by singing or writeing my feelings out in my blog tks 4 my friends with me all tis time..tks..taking care of me all these..

bk fetch my bro den after tat buy food 4 him den go hme le i change den go bishan le..and do my hair..hahax..den nv eat hungry bt no mood to eat..so go j8 play kof wha i win abt 4 seh..den i win one guy tat keep bully me de bt i noe him de i win him seh..hahax..1 time nia..the second time loose le..hehe..den after tat i go amk to play pool den i was so unconfortable in my heart and hungry want vomit cos stress sry and scard..den when i want hit the ball in pool den my phone ring..i shock den i gt a feel tat is laopo..den really her seh..den i was so releave..haix.wow..den i faster pay de go find her le..den i saw her facing other side..den i though bad thing happen again..den i go see her and ask wad happen den is nth neh..wha my heart was like suddenly stop...den we w8 4 mrt tat time keep hug her and like cry seh..she saw le ask me wad happen..i say i though sth happen to her or sth happen to us..den keep wry sacrd angry also angry cos she nv tell me she busy or wad..sth like tat.den i was releave tat nth happen den make me wry so much..den cry cos though gt thing happen den in the end nth lor..den nth happen and she was fine right in front of me wry...nt really sure hw to explain feelings arh...ya..den i jus nw tell her sth..i will say abit...mayb abit 4gt le..cos nw things are fine le..

okkies.i want tell u tat..:dear listen carefully okkies..bad things has been happening to us..rite..i am sry okkies..actually nt really sry jus sry tat make us went through so many unhappy thing..i am really sry..i really wish and hope tat u really can jus silent and finish everything..ya..if u hab true feelings pls do tis..okkies..u say he will hurt people rite..i can tell u if u gib me a chance i will hurt the fucker b4 he hurt some 1..okkies..i gib u tis promise..bt u jus wont rite..ya..i noe..sry 4 after saying thing abt the fucker really screw our mood and u are sick i dont want any bad thing happen..u noe hw sad i am every time alone i keep thinking of those kind of things tat i dont like..reason why i start tis with u..seeing u in school cry all these at amk hub cry all these..i am staying strong okkies..some people cant see my tears cos it had turn to sweat..i was a normal guy living a quite simple life..after noeing u i think my life totally change and i hab my confidence again..still remember my performance i told u i will play tis song 4 u..den i gt all As remember..ya tat is wad i mean true luv power alright..it really strong okkies..so dont b afraid to silent him or wad..stay strong i will b there 4 u..so u suddenly appear in my life..the luv story tat we share are different..so pls let me gib u love music and many more into yr life tis will totally change yr life i am sure rite..okkies..and..really sad thing dont turn out well i always nite i will think tomo things will it b okkies or nt..hoping it after i was swake the nxt day ready 4 school bt it always turn out the same nth happen at all..yaya..haix..and u sick nw hope u will b better every breath u take and every second..okkies..tat why u day by day getting better and better..den i promise u bring u go eat ice cream rite..i will okkies..i hardly promise de..hahax..i will do it..okkies..so faster recover den can peii me eat ice cream le..u dont want hubby alone eat rite..den faster recover..hope tat we truely luv each other and wont leave at all..i call it a million loves..lame rite..hahax..jia you on doing those thing i mention jus nw..ya i say here very loso..cant touch people lar..on phone can lar..hahax..tok easier..okkies..tke 4 so sin ku keep with me care for me and luv me so much..tks..tks..u say u really luv me and u really did..dont stress yrself too much okkies..slowly do those thing tat u want..and i wil b there 4 u de..ask laopo arh..read so long le..touch mar..dont cry neh.nvm i already buy dwn the whole singapore the tissue company scard u nt enought..hahax..jus a joke..sin ku u le tollerating me so pls do sth abit it..hao mar..i really really will b happy if u do tis..and can no nid go out together scard people say tis lar say tat lar..no more le..den we can hab our own freedom..alright..u will really see my ture smiles..hahax....bt i am still in tis condition..i noe u wont want leave me de rite..?sry sometime make u angry.....sry..okkies..okkies..i luv u baobei !!!! muaks !!!! muaks !!!! jia you !!!! jia you !!!! jia you !!!!...

hope i didnt leave out anything..cos write too much le..and keep write den cme bk write..mayb things i nv put it up..if u noe wad happen to me pls dont complain cos i write too much le..wha sian when i was writing tis paragraph i want write sth important..bt 4gt le..arghh..ermm..think nvm bar..already alot le..kkies..and my computer weird weird de..nw my friendster and google search all these and other website i go in bt slow all suddenly nw all ok le neh..hope like tis 4ever if today can tomo cant is sian de lor.tks.. all 4 those people who vote tat i am truely worth to b loved..okkies..lar..toking to laopo le..den sleep le..okkies bb nite..

2008-07-10T05:45:00.000-07:00

10th july le..nw my dad unlock the com 4 like 1 day i think..hahax..today in school haix..nt bad lar..morning raining again..hahax..tomo sure raining de..today in school like i was abit over sry..i like was peace with laopo..sth like tat cos she keep gib me abit of fan the look den keep like so happy when my other friend tok and crack a joke..i noe was too over sensertive cos scard u leave mar..sth like tat..hahax..actually i was jealous lar..den like make her so pek cek sry okkies..nv tell me nicely or wad..nv tell nicely hw i go hme so early and pass my time after she telling me all these..haix..really really fucking complicated..also cos of him den i abit siao sometimes..nt so jia lart like today lar...ya..den after school le..she say dont feel like going out.i ask her dont want me to fetch her home or wad meh..i keep asking lar..den she say ya want me go the feeling like dont want see me like tat angry abt me..den her bus cme le..den she jus quickly stand up den go take bus le nv even say gd bye to me..and nv even look at me smile den say gd bye..haix..den after tat i go hme tat time i call her and explain everything..and we hab a gd tok den nw ok le..ya think we promise each other things le..so tomo see lor..hahax..dear still sick also duno wad to do..haix..hw to help her nw google search wad to do..den google search keep cant tis cant tat..
after go hme watch show lor..den go practice my piano until my hand suan and abit pain seh..and pek cek still cant gt the song well cos my paino teacher say if tis song can play den go performance den my teacher can teach me hw to play jay chou secret the movie "first kiss" i show him the book wad..den he jus like tat say i shock seh..tis was wednesday de..laopo bring me go piano seh..hahax..same thing still scard of the toy snake..hahax..okkies..okkies..dotn scard le ok..saiyang saiyang..hahax..and i found a 50 dollar on the floor bt i gib bk to my friend shop..den we look in the cc tv see who drop de..we look and look finally noe who drop le..hahax..gd hor..laopo still say i honest neh..hahax..cool like tat..erm quite happy lar..can say 40% happy the rest sad and pain..mix..okkies..write until hand mroe suan le..hand suan lar..okkies..stop here if can i try tomo write..tomo i going school alone sian..sian..laopo want tell u sth: u will feel well every single sec okkies..i will b there to take care of u de..hope u really truely luv me..i noe inside and outside of school is diff..jus i dont get use to tis feel bar..okkies..
and stop asking me or disturbing me say i and her together or wad..okkies..is nth..nth..nth..